Hello there my little pancakes! How are you doing?

I'm happy. It's really that simple. This does not mean that I am not stressed or have moment where I want to slap someone upside the head with a frozen waffle. It means that the feelings of happiness trump all of those negative feelings. Which I think is pretty awesome. So, yes. I'm happy and it feels absolutely amazing. This is largely in part to the fact that I am currently in the middle of the sequel to the best day ever and unlike most sequels, this one is totally living up to the hype.

Things that have gotten done:
-about 1/4 of a 1500 piece puzzle
-pancake eating
-egg in the middle of bread eating
-grilled cheese
-being extremely cute
-sudoku
-to do lists
-online lectures
-the watching of All dogs go to Heaven and Walled In
-the watching of shows
-comparing the shampoo and conditioner we use
-playing super Mario bros brawl (I was Yoshi and Kirby)
-redesigning my artsy tag
-the revelation that I'm a mermaid
-lots of tea
-story reading
-the listening of music

Things that still need to get done:
-gingerbread house making
-3/4 of the puzzle
-the cleaning of a certain messy room
-more of a certain show
-coloring
-playing a Japanese game I don't remember the name of
-Listening to a comedian I don't know the name of

Now, that may not seem like a lot to get done, but I'm leaving really early Friday morning and I really don't want to. I'm going to miss it here so much. I can't wait to come back. Would coming back be the THREEquel or just a continuation of something totally awesome?

Christmas was awesome too. I went to my friend Nuno's house with my mom and spent Christmas Ever with his god mother, god father, and his godmother's mother. They're all Portuguese ans there are all a lot of fun and wonderful to be around. The food was phenomenal, all home made and very Portuguese as well. I totally got to take some of it home. Everyone knows that leftovers are one of the best things ever. Christmas day I spent time with my mom, who loved everything I got her, and went to church, which was lovely.

On the topic of church, I had a conversation that really made me think about my involvement in the catholic religion. I've always been very involved in my church community and have loved to volunteer within the church and things of that nature. However, I am also the same person who at 18 decided I needed to find a religion on my own, because I was not okay with just believing something because I was told it was the right thing to do. I've come to find that I'm much more spiritual than I am religious, mostly because I have such huge problems with the majority of religions and how rigid they are. I believe in God. I also believe in all types of love, including gay marriage, I believe abortion should be the choice of the woman who's pregnant, I don't believe that not believing in God will send people to hell or that the lack of belief makes them any less human or kind than me. I have a huge problem with the pope, in that I do not believe he is the closest person to God, not just because I believe that anyone who wishes to be close to God can achieve that, but because when Jesus was supposedly on the earth preforming a wide variety of miracles he had almost no clothes, lived simply, and didn't surround himself with gold and other lavish things. I also think the bible is taken entirely too seriously. The bible was written down years and years and years after the events that are in the bible supposedly happened, so just from a logical standpoint, I can't take everything written in it too seriously. Then there's the fact that there's a bunch of different versions and that all too often the bible is used a crutch. I take it as more of a collection of stories that are meant to be used as a guide on how to be a good human under the particular religion that uses it.
So, with all these beliefs, you might wonder why I even go to church. I have my reasons. So back to the conversation. We were talking about how anyone who believes in gay marriage can be a part of the catholic church. An institution that does not agree with or support every kind of love equally. I've been thinking about it a lot and it actually makes a lot of sense. I can still be supportive of God without being supportive of the church. Does this mean I'm never going to church again? I haven't decided again. I'm not just going to throw that option completely to the side, because it would be the most comfortable or the easiest one. I want to give it some more time to mull over. I want to think it through more, before I make a decision. While religion, spirituality, and my beliefs tend to be things that are emotionally tied to me in one way or another, I'm still very logical about them. So, yes. There is a possibility that after I think about this I might just stop going to church. I can find other ways to be give my time and try to be a good person. The church is not the only place in the world that offers me the opportunity to those things. The reason I go is out of respect to God. It's to say thank you in a way, for all the ways he's there for me. Once a week, stopping by his house is the least I can do. That's really the only reason I go, but it's important for me. If I do end up deciding that going to church is no longer something I wish to show my support for in any way, I'll have to find another way to say thanks to God. One that -I- feel is appropriate.

How was your holiday? :) I hope that you're all doing wonderfully. I miss you!

Peace, Love & Pancakes
-Liberty

My nails are getting better and my hands don't hurt. Too bad I start breaking them again on Monday. I really want to paint my nails red, I'm a having a serious nail polish deficit and it's not enjoyable.

22 Days left to the sequel of the best ever. Not that anybody's counting.

Today, I was having a conversation about New Year's resolutions. It made me realize how well I had done this year with the list I posted about wanting to try and do things this year. So, I think I might do it again. However, I'd like to revise the way I did it a little bit and I think maybe this year, I should share more of the things I do. Sharing things makes the more enjoyable.

It was "stare dramatically into the distance" day. So, you can imagine the kinds of looks I was getting. Ordering food was particularly eventful. I will definitely participate again next year.

I don't want to get into what music I've been currently obsessing over, because it's been all over the place. I will say that it's included Bruno Mars' "Marry you", Wolfmother's "Vagabond", All Time Low's "Stella", and Robyn's "With every heartbeat". So yes, it's been totally awesome.

I really want to finish Full Metal Alchemist, because that means we're one show closer to starting fruit basket! Which I really want to watch. I'm still totally in love Ouran High School Club. I still wish there were more episodes and seasons. What's that? You want to call the creators of the show and -make- them make more of this wonderful show? Awesome! And here you were wondering what I wanted for Christmas! :P

I'm in love with the concept of fondant on cupcakes. I can't believe I've never done it before. I want to, so badly. I could get so creative and detailed with the decorations if I were to do that. Think about it. I could remake the Star Wars cupcakes and make them so much neater and true to their original form. I could do Sonic the Hedgehog, Recreate all the different Yoshis, or create the characters from Finding Nemo. The possibilities are endless and the thing with using fondant is how much more detail I can incorporate. I need to do this. It could be so much fun.

SO COMPLETELY EXCITED ABOUT THE NEW LIFE FORM THEY'VE FOUND. The one that uses arsenic instead of phosphorous to create its' DNA. That is so star trek and it's pretty much the most awesome thing ever.

Did anyone catch the energy debates? I thought a lot of the ideas about what the government should be doing as far as renewable energy were really interesting. I completely agreed with the points about trying to share technology with China and getting them to do the same, instead of holding back a lot of their research with international laws. Same thing with India. I was really happy that they brought up how much of a cop out the cap and trade system really is and how the system used to measure it's efficiency isn't fair when compared to renewable energy, because of how many years carbon based energy has been in place comparatively. I think overall I was very satisfied with how most of the debates went down and I was really happy to see that despite the different things each side valued, everyone really agreed with where the country should be heading and the end goal with energy. It was a pleasant surprise. It's always nice to know that at least one aspect of the things I care about won't offer me too much of a worry.

I thought it was hilariously ironic how they got sent to a water park. Hadn't they had enough water with the flood? ^,^

With the current state of economic affairs in Spain I really want to buy property. The prices are dirt cheap and I don't think I'll see them this low again, not in my lifetime. We'll see what happens.

I miss you!

Peace, Love & Pancakes
-Liberty

I MISS YOU. ALL OF YOU.

This month has been INSANE. Literally, by definition. I'm really looking forward to December. It's going to be less insane and more FUN. And let me tell you, I really like fun. A lot. December 5th I get my little birdy from Wakfu, which words can explain how adorable he is and how EXCITED I am. Another snuggle buddy ftw. December 18th I get to dress up and go celebrate how wonderful my friend is for her birthday, and she's keep the entire thing under wraps, so I know nothing of what is to go down, all I know is there's 6 of us, we get to look pretty, and lots of pictures will be taken. OH! And there's cake. I was promised cake. That is also the last day of my online class until the new year. Speaking of which, I LOVE CLASS SO MUCH. You can't imagine how much I enjoy it. It's the biggest ego booster ever. I get told I'm brilliant and complimented on my work all the time. It's kind of like .. how could I NOT want to log in, do easy work, and get to hear how awesome I am? December 26th is the sequel to the best day ever, which I'm already counting down to, there are going to be puzzles and cookies involved .. so this day might just top the first. Maybe. There will also be more time for blogging and drawing and singing and being awesome. So yes. December is going to be an awesome month.

THAT is all for now. I could use some EM and V time, if you know what I'm saying. Hell Yes. SPARKLE SPARKLE!?

Peace, Love & Pancakes
-Liberty

"When we decided that we didn't want to be together anymore..." She began.
"But we never decided, I just made a mistake." He interrupted.
"When we decided that we didn't want to be together anymore..." She continued as if she hadn't heard him.
"My heart broke. And not because you were my heart entirely, but because you had the biggest piece of it, deep inside, so when that part of me crumbled, it shattered everything else along with it."
He stood there glassy eyed looking at her, searching for the words to say.
"We never decided that it was over, it was my fault, and I'm sorry." He finally responded without being able to look into her eyes.
"Wrong." She retorted
We made this decision the moment that it was over. When we both gave up and decided not to fight for it. We let go, because this is what we wanted. And nothing you have to say is going to change my mind, so just go."
At that moment both their heads spun around in reaction to the crash in the doorway.
"Oops! Sorry guys!" I squeaked as I slowly got up from the pile of boxes.
My face was burning and while they might think it's because I just slammed the door open and fell on my face, I rather not admit that I was eavesdropping. Although, this might be just as awkward.

Little snip from the scene I'm working on. :)

I officially start online classes on November 11th! Yay! I really can't wait, it's going to be so much fun. My brain is going to be filled with wonderful things!

Unfortunately, I have many lovely things to do, so I do hope you're all doing exceptionally well and I'll see you soon! :3

Peace, Love & Pancakes
-Liberty

I finally opened my box of Pocky. :) Thank you for that, it really made my day.

NaNoWriMo is well under way, but today is one of those really long days that I'm going to have to schedule time into breathe. Literally. I feel like I've been running around like a crazy woman all day. To think, I start my online degree soon and I'm reinstalling WoW in a few weeks. I know what you're thinking. Yes, I'm crazy. No, I don't want to talk about it.
I'm sure it'll be fine, today just happens to be one of those days, and the great about doing the degree online is that I can read ahead and complete all of the assignments ahead of time, to make sure I stay on schedule. That way, all I have to do is keep up with participation on a weekly basis and complete the exams. Not to mention, it'll help just in case of an emergency or if for whatever reason I have no internet.

I've been contemplating sharing my NaNoWriMo novel on here. Not sure. Maybe just once a week post interesting snippets? Do any of you even have an interest in reading my NaNoWriMo stuff?

Sometimes I get sick of having to be an adult. I know that sounds weird, but I like having fun. It's not that I don't enjoy being responsible or the freedoms of be an adult. There's just a part of me that gets sick of always having to take care of everything and feeling like I'm missing out on something. Not even sure what it might be, if anything at all. Which is completely absurd, I know. I feel like a small, whining child. I'm happy, I have fun, I mean hell ... I either have everything I want, or I'm on my way to getting it. What reason have I really got to complain?

It's still very weird in my mind to think about Christmas presents. In my culture, presents aren't given on Christmas. On January 6th, the three kings come and leave presents by the shiny, clean shoes you left by the door the night before. You eat roscon, it's a really happy day. However, Christmas is really a religious holiday for me. I obviously still participate in the American culture of gift giving, it's just a concept I'm still getting used to.

Alright, I need to make some yummy to put in my tummy, so I'll see all of you lovely people later. Have a marvelous day! <3

Peace, Love & Pancakes
-Liberty

NANOWRIMO YAY! I need to start writing today! :D I'm SO excited. However, there are things I need to get done prior to the start of my epic novel.
1.Post a blog, seeing as I probably won't blog too much this month, because I'll be writing 1667 words each day.
2.Re-organize the wicker dresser. It's a mess. honestly. I have in there the clothes that I don't use often, so it needs some updating. I've been putting it off and it needs to get done today.
3.Student Loans website. I need to fill it out and do it all today, I haven't had time to do it this past week and it should have been done days ago. Advertising degree here I come!
4.Work! I have papers to look over and forms to fill out. I need to figure out the last few details for Christmas and make sure everything is in place.

So, yes. I need to do all of those things before I can start writing. However, once I start writing, it's going to be a blast! Just wait till you meet Amelia Taragone, the spoiled princess.

Had SO much fun last night playing the Halloween game! We should absolutely do it next year! :)

Alright, have FUN NaNoWriMoing! I'll talk to you later!

Peace, Love & Pancakes
-Liberty

Finally got the cable I needed to get my scanner working again. So I'll be able to scan my artwork instead of having to take pictures of it. I'm very excited about this. I'm half curious to see how well something in pencil scans. I might try that later today.

I realized today that I don't know if I'm introverted or extroverted, because I think I'm both. On one hand I love my friends, I love surrounding myself with the people I love the most. I love talking and I'm comfortable in social situations. I'm relatively skilled at networking and connecting people. I'm not a wall flower and I know how to enjoy myself. On the other, I love being home and I go crazy if I don't get enough time to myself. Time to think and do the things I love. I would have no problem sitting in a completely empty room by myself with nothing but my thoughts to keep me company. I often prefer snuggling with a blanket and reading a book, to going out.
Maybe I'm both. Truthfully, it would make sense for me to be both. I tend to be so middle of the way in every other aspect of life. I'll just call it being balanced. Yes, that sounds better. I am balanced.

I love tea. I love, love, love tea. Steamy, sweet, and delicious. Yum. I've gotten into the habit of putting no sugar in my regular tea over the past few months. It's interesting.

I have such a deep appreciation for well written, meaningful lyrics and I'm a total sucker for sing songy voices. *sigh* As usual, my heart belongs to music.

I can't get over how devastatingly beautiful the leaves are, ruffled across the grass in brilliant shades of crimson and gold. I could lay outside among them for hours. To me, fall isn't death. It's a colorful representation of life. It's a reminder that everything has a beginning and an end. Fall is a whisper in my ear, telling me that all the bad in the world is leaving. That the memories of the past year are slowly crumbling and crunching beneath us and that all that resonates is our experiences and what we've learned from them, and that no matter how bad things might have been, it's still possible to stand tall and keep going. I love fall. I love the breeze in my hair, the way the branches seem to be reaching for the sky; begging for new beginnings. I love how everything outside can seem so scattered and so completely perfect at the same time. This is my kind of season.

My mozzarella sticks came out FANTASTICALLY. I can't wait to make them again. However, that will have to wait. I don't want to get into details. Let's just say my tummy is going to be very bored for a while.

Lines I'm in love with at the moment:
-Kiss me, save me, be my closest friend
-I could lose everything and have to begin over again.
-I can't get near you, when I do, I just can't shake the image of my hands exploring you
-but close enough to miss you and I do
-How quickly my soul is aging
-how it feels like a basement I keep filling with everything I'm tired of surviving
-I belonged to a scintillating and perplexing music I didn't expect to hear.
-He'd stare out the window so powerfully the world inside and outside our house would disappear.
-The world is moving, but my feet are standing still
-They say time's a healer, but my watch can't tell the time.
-I never met you, but I think I'm in love love love
-He jumped out of his window and his suicide failed. Well, you can't win them all.
-I'm ready for the day when I will get over you, but first just let me give myself entirely to you
-Feels like I'm falling in love, then I'm falling to the floor
-Give me some candy or I'll cut you.
-and it's cold in my apartment as I'm changing all the colors from the brightest reds to grays
-Bundle of divine cuteness!

Those are from songs, poetry, shows, and a movie or two. Just for the record. Hues is one of my favorite characters. Ever. So is Tamaki.

Talking with the Apoth crew yesterday was -amazing- :)

Peace, Love & Pancakes
-Liberty