Finally got the cable I needed to get my scanner working again. So I'll be able to scan my artwork instead of having to take pictures of it. I'm very excited about this. I'm half curious to see how well something in pencil scans. I might try that later today.

I realized today that I don't know if I'm introverted or extroverted, because I think I'm both. On one hand I love my friends, I love surrounding myself with the people I love the most. I love talking and I'm comfortable in social situations. I'm relatively skilled at networking and connecting people. I'm not a wall flower and I know how to enjoy myself. On the other, I love being home and I go crazy if I don't get enough time to myself. Time to think and do the things I love. I would have no problem sitting in a completely empty room by myself with nothing but my thoughts to keep me company. I often prefer snuggling with a blanket and reading a book, to going out.
Maybe I'm both. Truthfully, it would make sense for me to be both. I tend to be so middle of the way in every other aspect of life. I'll just call it being balanced. Yes, that sounds better. I am balanced.

I love tea. I love, love, love tea. Steamy, sweet, and delicious. Yum. I've gotten into the habit of putting no sugar in my regular tea over the past few months. It's interesting.

I have such a deep appreciation for well written, meaningful lyrics and I'm a total sucker for sing songy voices. *sigh* As usual, my heart belongs to music.

I can't get over how devastatingly beautiful the leaves are, ruffled across the grass in brilliant shades of crimson and gold. I could lay outside among them for hours. To me, fall isn't death. It's a colorful representation of life. It's a reminder that everything has a beginning and an end. Fall is a whisper in my ear, telling me that all the bad in the world is leaving. That the memories of the past year are slowly crumbling and crunching beneath us and that all that resonates is our experiences and what we've learned from them, and that no matter how bad things might have been, it's still possible to stand tall and keep going. I love fall. I love the breeze in my hair, the way the branches seem to be reaching for the sky; begging for new beginnings. I love how everything outside can seem so scattered and so completely perfect at the same time. This is my kind of season.

My mozzarella sticks came out FANTASTICALLY. I can't wait to make them again. However, that will have to wait. I don't want to get into details. Let's just say my tummy is going to be very bored for a while.

Lines I'm in love with at the moment:
-Kiss me, save me, be my closest friend
-I could lose everything and have to begin over again.
-I can't get near you, when I do, I just can't shake the image of my hands exploring you
-but close enough to miss you and I do
-How quickly my soul is aging
-how it feels like a basement I keep filling with everything I'm tired of surviving
-I belonged to a scintillating and perplexing music I didn't expect to hear.
-He'd stare out the window so powerfully the world inside and outside our house would disappear.
-The world is moving, but my feet are standing still
-They say time's a healer, but my watch can't tell the time.
-I never met you, but I think I'm in love love love
-He jumped out of his window and his suicide failed. Well, you can't win them all.
-I'm ready for the day when I will get over you, but first just let me give myself entirely to you
-Feels like I'm falling in love, then I'm falling to the floor
-Give me some candy or I'll cut you.
-and it's cold in my apartment as I'm changing all the colors from the brightest reds to grays
-Bundle of divine cuteness!

Those are from songs, poetry, shows, and a movie or two. Just for the record. Hues is one of my favorite characters. Ever. So is Tamaki.

Talking with the Apoth crew yesterday was -amazing- :)

Peace, Love & Pancakes
-Liberty

So, after blogging last night and thinking about it for a while, I decided that studying advertising was more important to me than I had originally thought. I just filled out the fafsa and put in an application for an accredited online program. I really like how they put out both the graphic art and the business side of things. I hope to start next year after I'm settled in again. I'm really excited. Seriously. I'm practically jumping in my chair right now. Early action ftw yes?

Grocery shopping makes me happy. Trying out a new recipe for mozzarella sticks after I post this. I'll let you know how they turn out, k?

Currently obsessing over All Time Low. Particularly their CD, Nothing Personal. Lyrics are so ridiculously catchy. It's awesome.

Yesterday was a really long day for me. I've been really tired recently and it's not due to lack of sleep! (for once) I'm really glad today wasn't as bad and I'm looking forward to this weekend. I want to try and finish the drawing I'm working on tonight. It's 2 pictures. The first is of a little girl and her mom sitting at a table. The little girl says "I love you mom!" and the mom responds "I love you, too, baby". The second picture on the same piece of paper is of the girl, a little older now, and the mom sitting at the same table. The girl tells her mom she loves her again, but this time the mom responds "Alright, how much is it going to cost me this time?" I thought it was cute and the concept made me giggle, so I went for it. I'll post pictures up on my flickr after I'm done drawing with pencil. I have yet to decide if I want to keep it black and white with pen or actually ad some color. I'm actually really hoping to scan it onto photoshop and play around with it there.

That's all I have for today.

Peace, Love & Pancakes
-Liberty

I'm excited! I have the idea set in place for my NaNoWriMo novel. I feel like all of the details are really setting into place, I'm going to have so much fun developingthe story this year. I also got this great idea to write a story cook book. Basically it would tell the story of a boy who does not know how to cook and the girl that taught him how, including all the recipes and techniques. I think it would be so mcuh fun to write. I'm going to put the idea away in the back of my notebook till the future presents itself with an opportunity to actually start putting something like that together.

I'm going to a sleepover this Saturday which should be a lot of fun! I can't wait to bust out my epic manicuring skills. I already bought the fruit for my favorite facial mask. Yes, this is the little girl inside of me, bringing out the pink ribbons and dancing around to "I feel pretty".

There are certain lessons in life that will be with me always and there is other knowledge which I'm still trying to acquire. I'd really like to back to school and study advertising. For so many reasons. It's just one of those skills which you can apply to any aspect of life and enrich it. I'm just mulling it over at the moment, but it would be quite wonderful to have the opportunity to study that. I have to figure out what other things I'm doing next year before I commit to this idea, but it's sneaking higher up on my priority list.

My dream line for the past 3 months has been completed! Yay! For the next 3 months my dream line is mostly me trying to get into the habit of doing stuff I love more often. Like completing 2 pieces of art a month and winning NaNoWriMo, among other things. I'm looking forward to it.

I really like conversation. I do. I like being silly, I like talking seriously about things that I care about, and I like just spending time with people. You know what I don't like? Being lectured about the same thing over and over. Especially when it's like listening to a poorly written paper.
When I want to make a point, I state the point and then corroborate until I feel the person I'm speaking with understands, or they say something that shows they've gotten it. When I want to make a point I don't go off on tangents, because it's important for me to communicate clearly and not distract from the original topic.
I don't expect everyone to take all these things into consideration. However, when I point out that they are repeating themselves and have failed to make any point, they shouldn't be offended. It's honest and it's that simple.

I don't have a pink colored pencil, I wish I did. A black one would be nice too, so I could stop using pen. Obviously they're both the same color, but the textures are so different.

Starting my Christmas card list for this year, if you want to be added send me an email with your mailing address.

See you lovely people soon. :)

Peace, Love & Pancakes
-Liberty

Hello my little pancakes!

I miss making youtube videos. I'm thinking of starting up again. If I do, it'll be slowly and I'll have to set some rules up for myself so I do end up with 300 clips and none of them edited.

For those of you who followed my birthday story book, it was a success! I have also recently been challenged to write and illustrate another story book entirely, by June 2011, for children. I think this may be the perfect chance to finish up my Magic Ball storybook. We shall see what mind manages to cook up!

Today, someone was talking about the use of color in a picture and during one sentence said "..Lavender, Brown.." to which I responded "i never really liked her!" in an overly excited tone. It got me wired looks. If you understand the reference, you're wonderful.

I'm eating every 3 hours, so my usual quick recipes are getting boring! I need to find or make fun new things that are quick and require the things that are already on my grocery list.

I love sunshine.

Peace, Love & Pancakes
-Liberty

Gah! I'm almost finished with this Sudoku book. >.< I need to find one that has more than a hundred or so puzzles in it. Otherwise I go through them too fast.

I love Einstein. He is the syrup to my pancake. I wish he were still around so I could seduce him with my pancakes and unique way of thinking. And I know what you're thinking, but trust me; A man that smart is totally a pancake lover.

List of stuff they've brought me in:
Mangos
Pears
Apples (so many in so many variations that I sorted them and used them in a lesson about numbers, after which I made an apple pie)
Heart shaped chocolate chip cookies
Chocolate
Pineapple (because I mentioned Spongebob)
Bag of cocoa mix
Kiwis
Brownies
Sprinkled vanilla cupcakes
M&Ms
Chocolate covered almonds
Shortbread cookies
Pretzel

All I can say is that they are fantastic listeners, because they caught on to all the foods I said I liked. I think the only reason nobody has brought in pancakes is because they'd be cold by the time they got to me.

Jogging for 2 hours makes me sore. My muscles need a hug.

I love how well the Beatles spoke french. It kind of melts me inside and makes my heart feel like it's flying.

I miss eating dinner with someone. I'm looking forward to being with my friends again for that reason, among many others of course. There's just something about sitting at a table with someone and sharing good food that makes me so happy. Don't get me wrong, I really appreciate spending time with my friends online, but I can't wait to eat at a table with them.

I love candles. They smell lovely and are so wonderfully relaxing.

Tea time. :)

Peace, Love & Pancakes
-Liberty

I need to head to bed so this is going to be relatively quick!

Watched Rocky Horror Picture Show last night and had so much fun singing along to all the songs! What a fun movie, I can't wait for Halloween.

I've decided I'm going for NaNoWriMo this year! What finally pushed me was Alex suggesting that we do it together. Not as in writing a piece of literature together, but writing our own stuff together. That way, it'll much less stressful and we can motivate each other when it gets tough. My favorite part was when he groaned after suggesting it, realizing that it was actually a really good idea and knowing that I'd probably go for it. Meaning he'll actually have to write 50,000 words next month. Is it wrong I almost feel like letting out an evil giggle?
I have a very general idea of what I want to write about. Since last year I went fantasy, science fiction, this year I want to do something more real world. I won't tell you much right now, but I'll be using real life experiences and the experiences of those around me to create the story about a girl gamer. Again nothing crazy like letting her get physically sucked in the game world or anything like that, but I do expect it to be a lot of fun none the less.

Thank you so much for all the people that have already given me their vote for the happy mood blogging job. I really appreciate it! If you want to show a little extra support you can feel free to post the link on your facebook and tell your friends to vote for me too! Every little bit helps and don't forget to keep voting once a day!
I'm working on a flier at the moment and that'll be available for download as part of a facebook event I'm creating later this week! Again, thank you so much guys! It means a lot to me. :)

Link to vote: http://www.sam-e.com/job/entries/188

Peace, Love & Pancakes
-Liberty

Hello there! I need your help!

There's this competition for a blogging job! To get past the first round I need your votes! You can vote everyday and I would appreciate it if you could round up your friends and family to vote for me as well! This would be perfect for me because I'd being getting paid to make people happy!

Here;s the link: http://www.sam-e.com/job/entries/188

Thank you so much in advance!

Peace, Love & Pancakes
-Liberty

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Today I got my first silly band. It's a pink flamingo and I love it. :)

I have a new found love for audio books. I can cook dinner while I listen to a lovely voice reading wonderful words to me.

I mistook a tomato for an apple. Don't even ask me how that happened. It was quite funny.

I love yoga. It makes me feel really good. Mind you, I'm still a novice. The feelings are still wonderful regardless.

Listening to a playlist of Shayne Orok's music covers right before bed, is one of the best things ever.

I'm a playing a game. If you want, you can play with me too! For Halloween, I'm picking 5 different characters. They can each be from history, anime, tv, a book, or a movie. Then when we talk on Halloween we each act as one of the characters that we've chosen. When one of guesses the character that we're acting as, we move on to the next character. When one of us has guessed all 5 characters that person wins!
Example:
Me: Oh hello beautiful lady! You are the most ravishing creature my eyes have ever laid upon! You are the mermaid that lights my sea of loneliness!

Friend: Hi there. I don't have mermaid form yet, is that a cataclysm thing? Should be better than the new hideous tree form they expect me to put up with. Why do you sound like you're crying? I don't need to be watered, if that's what you're thing.

Me: Oh dear one, fret not! You will always be the heart that keeps me beating! I'm guessing you are a resto druid?

Friend: Yes! And I'm guessing you're Tamaki Suo?

Me: Yes! Next Character?

---This would go on until we each guess all 5 of each others characters!---

So if you want to play with me, pick 5 characters and look for my on skype Sunday, October 31st! Don't forget that I'll be available in the morning till around 1pm eastern standard time. After that, it's game over! :)

I miss you guys! Hope to speak to you this Halloween!

Peace, Love & Pancakes
-Liberty

Things currently rummaging around the space waves of my brain:

-With NaNoWriMo less than a month away I have to start thinking about the possibility of participating again. It's not so much a question of whether or not I want to (of course I want to), it's more of a question of can I honestly commit the time to do it. Mind you, I'm fully aware that my schedule around this time of the year has always been a little bit on the ridiculous side, but I don't know if I can handle the extra pressure this year. And to answer what you're probably thinking, No. I can't just start it and then not finish if it gets to be too much. If it gets to be too much I'll lose sleep and get it done anyway. So yes, I'm actually considering not doing it this year. We'll see how I feel closer to the end of the month.

-Child asks me the driveway/parkway question. By the time I got to explaining about word origins and literal definitions, I was interrupted and told that the right answers was lack of intelligence from English people, but that I was still really smart for trying. (laughing to self right now) Kids. Go figure.

-Kids that bring the teacher an apple (or a mango) have a special place inmy heart. So do little girls who wear ridiculously cute bows in their hair.

-I pride myself on the use of color. Professional doesn't have to mean black and white. So, when I decided that I wanted to wear purple on Wednesday to show my support for the young, gay men who committed suicide I thought "Great"! No problem right? However, I find myself in a bit of a jiffy. I own -nothing- purple. Nothing. Not even a purple ribbon for my hair, which I have in every other color, even orange. No purple shirt or sweater, not even socks! I feel a slight pang of disappointment in myself for not owning purple. How is it that I can have cyan blue sneakers, traffic light red corduroys, a sunshine yellow ribbon, and nothing purple? Have I shunned purple subconsciously? I don't have anything against it. I think it's a lovely color. I even recently painted a room in a beautiful shade of tulip purple. I don't know how this happened, but purple I am so sorry. I promise to make a conscious effort to add more of you to my wardrobe and even into my everyday life.

-Tall, skinny, laid back, and super nerdy is rawr. Boys who talk to animals are also quite steamy. Boys who buy adorable, roller skating stuffed animal pigs at the grocery store, because they tag says that they like to cook and love pancakes are also ranked somewhere on the cute meter. I approve of this.

-Comfort > Style. Always and forever. Just because a store dells a particular item of clothing,that doesn't mean you have to buy it. Use your brain. Please.

-When I say make a present tense sentence using a particular object, like say a pencil, that doesn't mean take the pencil and try to make a physical representation of a sentence. Although, I'll admit, it's very clever.

-I'm currently in love with mixing Grey and other colors. It's fantastic. Really.

(Also, Shayne Orok = <3)

Stay awesome. :)

Peace, Love & Pancakes
-Liberty

10 more things you didn't know about me.

1. I signed a petition for a 2nd season of Ouran High School Host club. It's an anime that I very much love. (You can sign it too and I'll give you cookies. http://www.petitiononline.com/1778487/petition.html)

2. My favorite article of clothing was not originally mine. It's a gray T-Shirt and it is completely wonderful.

3. When I was younger strawberries were my 2nd favorite fruit, I was much more partial to kiwis.

4. One of my reasons for never wanting to get married used to be that I didn't want my initials to change.

5. I consciously use song and movie quotes in serious tones during serious conversations, in ways that actually fit. Later I go back and giggle about it to myself.

6. My favorite Pokemon (original 150) are Chamander and Articuno. Don't question my sanity. Rawr.

7. If I ever for some reason become famous and have some sort of photo shoot for whatever, I'm going to request they play Dragonette's album "Fixin To Thrill" throughout the whole thing.

8. My chestnut mare's name is Wendy, the cute, little hippo is named Mr.Hippo, in my mind Mr.Pumpkin is always laughing, and Charizard has a British accent.

9. When I was 5 (maybe 6) I had a crush on Christopher Grippo.

10. Today, I put up my very first ever dream catcher. (Thank you for that <3)

If you actually knew any of those .. you get pancakes. :)

Peace, Love & Pancakes
-Liberty

October 6th, 2010 I woke up at 3am, had a 20 minute car ride, 1 hour long train ride, 8 minute subway ride, 10 minute walk; by which my shoulder was already starting to poke me, an 8 hour bus ride; for which the first 2 hours included me feeling dizzy and sick, a few more minutes of walking, another 10 minute subway ride, and then waiting. On the bus the lady sitting in front of me talked to herself the entire time. It was so rainy and windy outside that my umbrella broke and I ended up buying another one later in the day. My boots got so soaked that they started to drag as I walked and inevitably caused the blisters my feet now have. My coat, while amazing against wind, did nothing but soak in the rain, and my jeans ... well, I think we all know what happens to jeans with a little too much water. We were afraid that this guy rummaging through garbage cans was following us on our way to South Station so we picked up the pace, keeping in mind I already had a blister at that point. I tried Lobster Bisque soup for the first time and didn't really like it, spent most of the day cold, and you want to know what?

It was the best day of my life.

The Gorillaz concert was incredibly awesome, although I admit to not having taken any pictures (Sorry Nathan & Amberly!), because I was too busy enjoying myself the entire time. In truth, I think only about 10 pictures were taken throughout the entire day and they were all while we were sitting at the Library cafe while we were eating. The use of the big screen and the colors was phenomenal, and I loved how they worked the crowd. We went to 2 "fun" stores, one of which also sold "fun" chocolates and I got a banana shaped chocolate pop. *Snicker* The whole day was a lot of fun and it made so happy. I love it and I can't wait to do it again.

However, the real reason it was such a wonderful day was the company. I could have gotten twice as soaked, walked and waited ten times more, and I wouldn't care. Walking through the park, mistaking a canon for a globe, giggling about the numbered public alleys, trying to save the map, finding too many churches, thinking we found the library before actually finding it, getting the most thoughtful give I've ever received, realizing that I'm paler, totally rocking at sudoku, experiencing ninja skills in the corner by the water fountain, being cute in the rain, missing the right street because I was too distracted, trying amp for the first time, rocking out at the concert, leaving my scarf at the arena and doubling back to get it, not holding the railing on the subway back to the station, standing against the wall and being unbelievably happy, missing the train, almost falling asleep on the bench, walking for an hour with a little extra support, somehow taking twice as long of a break, wondering why the person was still standing in the same place, realizing it was a statue, getting in trouble with the rent-a-cop, missing the elevator, hearing the poem in person, and looking back twice before leaving, because I didn't want to go. Rawr.

I'm eternally thankful for how lucky I am. Gah. I didn't want to make this a sentimental post, because I don't feel like that would properly express how amazing of a day it really was, but I don't think I can help it!

Oh, yea. Work was wonderful too. Hah! More on that some other time. :)

Stay wonderful.

Peace, Love & Pancakes
-Liberty

I think it's pretty funny when older women talk about wanting to look like they're 20.

Don't get me wrong, there's nothing wrong with wanting to look good and finding the best possible way to look your best. However, I firmly believe in aging gracefully. I want to look good for my age, not look like a specific age. I rather look healthy, elegant, and natural, than look processed and have face lifts that go all the way back to my ears.

You might think it's easy for me to say since I'm only 23, but I don't think so. It's not even about looking a certain way or not looking a certain way, it's about living up to your own personal standards of beauty and not everyone else's. At the end of the day you're the one that has to be happy with yourself and that includes what you do or don't do to your face.

Peace, Love & Pancakes
-Liberty

I feel like I generally lose a lot of really great things in life. The people I care the most about or my relationships with them, whether literally losing them, or otherwise. Opportunities, chances, possibilities, and plans that I really wanted. Don't get me wrong, I don't regret my life. Everything that's happened or hasn't happened has shaped who I am right now, and while I'm not perfect, I happen to like me.

So, I'm not going to reminisce about what could have been, but I am going to make a promise to not let it happen anymore. Not if I can help it. (and truthfully, more often than not, I can help it, or at least try to) I take full responsibility for my share and my part in all of actions and consequences that I've partaken in up to this point.

I'm at one of those crossroads right now with something very important to me and I refuse to let go of it. I won't let it go away, not work out, or get lost. This is something I know I'll regret if I don't hold on to. It's completely terrifying and that's okay. It's weird, but the fear makes it more real to me, and in an abstract way reminds me that it's worth it. I'm going to take a deep breath, hope for the best, and put myself entirely into this.

(Only 4 days left for the awesomest day ever! :D)

Peace, Love & Pancakes
-Liberty