Hello there my little pancakes! How are you doing?

I'm happy. It's really that simple. This does not mean that I am not stressed or have moment where I want to slap someone upside the head with a frozen waffle. It means that the feelings of happiness trump all of those negative feelings. Which I think is pretty awesome. So, yes. I'm happy and it feels absolutely amazing. This is largely in part to the fact that I am currently in the middle of the sequel to the best day ever and unlike most sequels, this one is totally living up to the hype.

Things that have gotten done:
-about 1/4 of a 1500 piece puzzle
-pancake eating
-egg in the middle of bread eating
-grilled cheese
-being extremely cute
-sudoku
-to do lists
-online lectures
-the watching of All dogs go to Heaven and Walled In
-the watching of shows
-comparing the shampoo and conditioner we use
-playing super Mario bros brawl (I was Yoshi and Kirby)
-redesigning my artsy tag
-the revelation that I'm a mermaid
-lots of tea
-story reading
-the listening of music

Things that still need to get done:
-gingerbread house making
-3/4 of the puzzle
-the cleaning of a certain messy room
-more of a certain show
-coloring
-playing a Japanese game I don't remember the name of
-Listening to a comedian I don't know the name of

Now, that may not seem like a lot to get done, but I'm leaving really early Friday morning and I really don't want to. I'm going to miss it here so much. I can't wait to come back. Would coming back be the THREEquel or just a continuation of something totally awesome?

Christmas was awesome too. I went to my friend Nuno's house with my mom and spent Christmas Ever with his god mother, god father, and his godmother's mother. They're all Portuguese ans there are all a lot of fun and wonderful to be around. The food was phenomenal, all home made and very Portuguese as well. I totally got to take some of it home. Everyone knows that leftovers are one of the best things ever. Christmas day I spent time with my mom, who loved everything I got her, and went to church, which was lovely.

On the topic of church, I had a conversation that really made me think about my involvement in the catholic religion. I've always been very involved in my church community and have loved to volunteer within the church and things of that nature. However, I am also the same person who at 18 decided I needed to find a religion on my own, because I was not okay with just believing something because I was told it was the right thing to do. I've come to find that I'm much more spiritual than I am religious, mostly because I have such huge problems with the majority of religions and how rigid they are. I believe in God. I also believe in all types of love, including gay marriage, I believe abortion should be the choice of the woman who's pregnant, I don't believe that not believing in God will send people to hell or that the lack of belief makes them any less human or kind than me. I have a huge problem with the pope, in that I do not believe he is the closest person to God, not just because I believe that anyone who wishes to be close to God can achieve that, but because when Jesus was supposedly on the earth preforming a wide variety of miracles he had almost no clothes, lived simply, and didn't surround himself with gold and other lavish things. I also think the bible is taken entirely too seriously. The bible was written down years and years and years after the events that are in the bible supposedly happened, so just from a logical standpoint, I can't take everything written in it too seriously. Then there's the fact that there's a bunch of different versions and that all too often the bible is used a crutch. I take it as more of a collection of stories that are meant to be used as a guide on how to be a good human under the particular religion that uses it.
So, with all these beliefs, you might wonder why I even go to church. I have my reasons. So back to the conversation. We were talking about how anyone who believes in gay marriage can be a part of the catholic church. An institution that does not agree with or support every kind of love equally. I've been thinking about it a lot and it actually makes a lot of sense. I can still be supportive of God without being supportive of the church. Does this mean I'm never going to church again? I haven't decided again. I'm not just going to throw that option completely to the side, because it would be the most comfortable or the easiest one. I want to give it some more time to mull over. I want to think it through more, before I make a decision. While religion, spirituality, and my beliefs tend to be things that are emotionally tied to me in one way or another, I'm still very logical about them. So, yes. There is a possibility that after I think about this I might just stop going to church. I can find other ways to be give my time and try to be a good person. The church is not the only place in the world that offers me the opportunity to those things. The reason I go is out of respect to God. It's to say thank you in a way, for all the ways he's there for me. Once a week, stopping by his house is the least I can do. That's really the only reason I go, but it's important for me. If I do end up deciding that going to church is no longer something I wish to show my support for in any way, I'll have to find another way to say thanks to God. One that -I- feel is appropriate.

How was your holiday? :) I hope that you're all doing wonderfully. I miss you!

Peace, Love & Pancakes
-Liberty

My nails are getting better and my hands don't hurt. Too bad I start breaking them again on Monday. I really want to paint my nails red, I'm a having a serious nail polish deficit and it's not enjoyable.

22 Days left to the sequel of the best ever. Not that anybody's counting.

Today, I was having a conversation about New Year's resolutions. It made me realize how well I had done this year with the list I posted about wanting to try and do things this year. So, I think I might do it again. However, I'd like to revise the way I did it a little bit and I think maybe this year, I should share more of the things I do. Sharing things makes the more enjoyable.

It was "stare dramatically into the distance" day. So, you can imagine the kinds of looks I was getting. Ordering food was particularly eventful. I will definitely participate again next year.

I don't want to get into what music I've been currently obsessing over, because it's been all over the place. I will say that it's included Bruno Mars' "Marry you", Wolfmother's "Vagabond", All Time Low's "Stella", and Robyn's "With every heartbeat". So yes, it's been totally awesome.

I really want to finish Full Metal Alchemist, because that means we're one show closer to starting fruit basket! Which I really want to watch. I'm still totally in love Ouran High School Club. I still wish there were more episodes and seasons. What's that? You want to call the creators of the show and -make- them make more of this wonderful show? Awesome! And here you were wondering what I wanted for Christmas! :P

I'm in love with the concept of fondant on cupcakes. I can't believe I've never done it before. I want to, so badly. I could get so creative and detailed with the decorations if I were to do that. Think about it. I could remake the Star Wars cupcakes and make them so much neater and true to their original form. I could do Sonic the Hedgehog, Recreate all the different Yoshis, or create the characters from Finding Nemo. The possibilities are endless and the thing with using fondant is how much more detail I can incorporate. I need to do this. It could be so much fun.

SO COMPLETELY EXCITED ABOUT THE NEW LIFE FORM THEY'VE FOUND. The one that uses arsenic instead of phosphorous to create its' DNA. That is so star trek and it's pretty much the most awesome thing ever.

Did anyone catch the energy debates? I thought a lot of the ideas about what the government should be doing as far as renewable energy were really interesting. I completely agreed with the points about trying to share technology with China and getting them to do the same, instead of holding back a lot of their research with international laws. Same thing with India. I was really happy that they brought up how much of a cop out the cap and trade system really is and how the system used to measure it's efficiency isn't fair when compared to renewable energy, because of how many years carbon based energy has been in place comparatively. I think overall I was very satisfied with how most of the debates went down and I was really happy to see that despite the different things each side valued, everyone really agreed with where the country should be heading and the end goal with energy. It was a pleasant surprise. It's always nice to know that at least one aspect of the things I care about won't offer me too much of a worry.

I thought it was hilariously ironic how they got sent to a water park. Hadn't they had enough water with the flood? ^,^

With the current state of economic affairs in Spain I really want to buy property. The prices are dirt cheap and I don't think I'll see them this low again, not in my lifetime. We'll see what happens.

I miss you!

Peace, Love & Pancakes
-Liberty

I MISS YOU. ALL OF YOU.

This month has been INSANE. Literally, by definition. I'm really looking forward to December. It's going to be less insane and more FUN. And let me tell you, I really like fun. A lot. December 5th I get my little birdy from Wakfu, which words can explain how adorable he is and how EXCITED I am. Another snuggle buddy ftw. December 18th I get to dress up and go celebrate how wonderful my friend is for her birthday, and she's keep the entire thing under wraps, so I know nothing of what is to go down, all I know is there's 6 of us, we get to look pretty, and lots of pictures will be taken. OH! And there's cake. I was promised cake. That is also the last day of my online class until the new year. Speaking of which, I LOVE CLASS SO MUCH. You can't imagine how much I enjoy it. It's the biggest ego booster ever. I get told I'm brilliant and complimented on my work all the time. It's kind of like .. how could I NOT want to log in, do easy work, and get to hear how awesome I am? December 26th is the sequel to the best day ever, which I'm already counting down to, there are going to be puzzles and cookies involved .. so this day might just top the first. Maybe. There will also be more time for blogging and drawing and singing and being awesome. So yes. December is going to be an awesome month.

THAT is all for now. I could use some EM and V time, if you know what I'm saying. Hell Yes. SPARKLE SPARKLE!?

Peace, Love & Pancakes
-Liberty

"When we decided that we didn't want to be together anymore..." She began.
"But we never decided, I just made a mistake." He interrupted.
"When we decided that we didn't want to be together anymore..." She continued as if she hadn't heard him.
"My heart broke. And not because you were my heart entirely, but because you had the biggest piece of it, deep inside, so when that part of me crumbled, it shattered everything else along with it."
He stood there glassy eyed looking at her, searching for the words to say.
"We never decided that it was over, it was my fault, and I'm sorry." He finally responded without being able to look into her eyes.
"Wrong." She retorted
We made this decision the moment that it was over. When we both gave up and decided not to fight for it. We let go, because this is what we wanted. And nothing you have to say is going to change my mind, so just go."
At that moment both their heads spun around in reaction to the crash in the doorway.
"Oops! Sorry guys!" I squeaked as I slowly got up from the pile of boxes.
My face was burning and while they might think it's because I just slammed the door open and fell on my face, I rather not admit that I was eavesdropping. Although, this might be just as awkward.

Little snip from the scene I'm working on. :)

I officially start online classes on November 11th! Yay! I really can't wait, it's going to be so much fun. My brain is going to be filled with wonderful things!

Unfortunately, I have many lovely things to do, so I do hope you're all doing exceptionally well and I'll see you soon! :3

Peace, Love & Pancakes
-Liberty

I finally opened my box of Pocky. :) Thank you for that, it really made my day.

NaNoWriMo is well under way, but today is one of those really long days that I'm going to have to schedule time into breathe. Literally. I feel like I've been running around like a crazy woman all day. To think, I start my online degree soon and I'm reinstalling WoW in a few weeks. I know what you're thinking. Yes, I'm crazy. No, I don't want to talk about it.
I'm sure it'll be fine, today just happens to be one of those days, and the great about doing the degree online is that I can read ahead and complete all of the assignments ahead of time, to make sure I stay on schedule. That way, all I have to do is keep up with participation on a weekly basis and complete the exams. Not to mention, it'll help just in case of an emergency or if for whatever reason I have no internet.

I've been contemplating sharing my NaNoWriMo novel on here. Not sure. Maybe just once a week post interesting snippets? Do any of you even have an interest in reading my NaNoWriMo stuff?

Sometimes I get sick of having to be an adult. I know that sounds weird, but I like having fun. It's not that I don't enjoy being responsible or the freedoms of be an adult. There's just a part of me that gets sick of always having to take care of everything and feeling like I'm missing out on something. Not even sure what it might be, if anything at all. Which is completely absurd, I know. I feel like a small, whining child. I'm happy, I have fun, I mean hell ... I either have everything I want, or I'm on my way to getting it. What reason have I really got to complain?

It's still very weird in my mind to think about Christmas presents. In my culture, presents aren't given on Christmas. On January 6th, the three kings come and leave presents by the shiny, clean shoes you left by the door the night before. You eat roscon, it's a really happy day. However, Christmas is really a religious holiday for me. I obviously still participate in the American culture of gift giving, it's just a concept I'm still getting used to.

Alright, I need to make some yummy to put in my tummy, so I'll see all of you lovely people later. Have a marvelous day! <3

Peace, Love & Pancakes
-Liberty

NANOWRIMO YAY! I need to start writing today! :D I'm SO excited. However, there are things I need to get done prior to the start of my epic novel.
1.Post a blog, seeing as I probably won't blog too much this month, because I'll be writing 1667 words each day.
2.Re-organize the wicker dresser. It's a mess. honestly. I have in there the clothes that I don't use often, so it needs some updating. I've been putting it off and it needs to get done today.
3.Student Loans website. I need to fill it out and do it all today, I haven't had time to do it this past week and it should have been done days ago. Advertising degree here I come!
4.Work! I have papers to look over and forms to fill out. I need to figure out the last few details for Christmas and make sure everything is in place.

So, yes. I need to do all of those things before I can start writing. However, once I start writing, it's going to be a blast! Just wait till you meet Amelia Taragone, the spoiled princess.

Had SO much fun last night playing the Halloween game! We should absolutely do it next year! :)

Alright, have FUN NaNoWriMoing! I'll talk to you later!

Peace, Love & Pancakes
-Liberty

Finally got the cable I needed to get my scanner working again. So I'll be able to scan my artwork instead of having to take pictures of it. I'm very excited about this. I'm half curious to see how well something in pencil scans. I might try that later today.

I realized today that I don't know if I'm introverted or extroverted, because I think I'm both. On one hand I love my friends, I love surrounding myself with the people I love the most. I love talking and I'm comfortable in social situations. I'm relatively skilled at networking and connecting people. I'm not a wall flower and I know how to enjoy myself. On the other, I love being home and I go crazy if I don't get enough time to myself. Time to think and do the things I love. I would have no problem sitting in a completely empty room by myself with nothing but my thoughts to keep me company. I often prefer snuggling with a blanket and reading a book, to going out.
Maybe I'm both. Truthfully, it would make sense for me to be both. I tend to be so middle of the way in every other aspect of life. I'll just call it being balanced. Yes, that sounds better. I am balanced.

I love tea. I love, love, love tea. Steamy, sweet, and delicious. Yum. I've gotten into the habit of putting no sugar in my regular tea over the past few months. It's interesting.

I have such a deep appreciation for well written, meaningful lyrics and I'm a total sucker for sing songy voices. *sigh* As usual, my heart belongs to music.

I can't get over how devastatingly beautiful the leaves are, ruffled across the grass in brilliant shades of crimson and gold. I could lay outside among them for hours. To me, fall isn't death. It's a colorful representation of life. It's a reminder that everything has a beginning and an end. Fall is a whisper in my ear, telling me that all the bad in the world is leaving. That the memories of the past year are slowly crumbling and crunching beneath us and that all that resonates is our experiences and what we've learned from them, and that no matter how bad things might have been, it's still possible to stand tall and keep going. I love fall. I love the breeze in my hair, the way the branches seem to be reaching for the sky; begging for new beginnings. I love how everything outside can seem so scattered and so completely perfect at the same time. This is my kind of season.

My mozzarella sticks came out FANTASTICALLY. I can't wait to make them again. However, that will have to wait. I don't want to get into details. Let's just say my tummy is going to be very bored for a while.

Lines I'm in love with at the moment:
-Kiss me, save me, be my closest friend
-I could lose everything and have to begin over again.
-I can't get near you, when I do, I just can't shake the image of my hands exploring you
-but close enough to miss you and I do
-How quickly my soul is aging
-how it feels like a basement I keep filling with everything I'm tired of surviving
-I belonged to a scintillating and perplexing music I didn't expect to hear.
-He'd stare out the window so powerfully the world inside and outside our house would disappear.
-The world is moving, but my feet are standing still
-They say time's a healer, but my watch can't tell the time.
-I never met you, but I think I'm in love love love
-He jumped out of his window and his suicide failed. Well, you can't win them all.
-I'm ready for the day when I will get over you, but first just let me give myself entirely to you
-Feels like I'm falling in love, then I'm falling to the floor
-Give me some candy or I'll cut you.
-and it's cold in my apartment as I'm changing all the colors from the brightest reds to grays
-Bundle of divine cuteness!

Those are from songs, poetry, shows, and a movie or two. Just for the record. Hues is one of my favorite characters. Ever. So is Tamaki.

Talking with the Apoth crew yesterday was -amazing- :)

Peace, Love & Pancakes
-Liberty

So, after blogging last night and thinking about it for a while, I decided that studying advertising was more important to me than I had originally thought. I just filled out the fafsa and put in an application for an accredited online program. I really like how they put out both the graphic art and the business side of things. I hope to start next year after I'm settled in again. I'm really excited. Seriously. I'm practically jumping in my chair right now. Early action ftw yes?

Grocery shopping makes me happy. Trying out a new recipe for mozzarella sticks after I post this. I'll let you know how they turn out, k?

Currently obsessing over All Time Low. Particularly their CD, Nothing Personal. Lyrics are so ridiculously catchy. It's awesome.

Yesterday was a really long day for me. I've been really tired recently and it's not due to lack of sleep! (for once) I'm really glad today wasn't as bad and I'm looking forward to this weekend. I want to try and finish the drawing I'm working on tonight. It's 2 pictures. The first is of a little girl and her mom sitting at a table. The little girl says "I love you mom!" and the mom responds "I love you, too, baby". The second picture on the same piece of paper is of the girl, a little older now, and the mom sitting at the same table. The girl tells her mom she loves her again, but this time the mom responds "Alright, how much is it going to cost me this time?" I thought it was cute and the concept made me giggle, so I went for it. I'll post pictures up on my flickr after I'm done drawing with pencil. I have yet to decide if I want to keep it black and white with pen or actually ad some color. I'm actually really hoping to scan it onto photoshop and play around with it there.

That's all I have for today.

Peace, Love & Pancakes
-Liberty

I'm excited! I have the idea set in place for my NaNoWriMo novel. I feel like all of the details are really setting into place, I'm going to have so much fun developingthe story this year. I also got this great idea to write a story cook book. Basically it would tell the story of a boy who does not know how to cook and the girl that taught him how, including all the recipes and techniques. I think it would be so mcuh fun to write. I'm going to put the idea away in the back of my notebook till the future presents itself with an opportunity to actually start putting something like that together.

I'm going to a sleepover this Saturday which should be a lot of fun! I can't wait to bust out my epic manicuring skills. I already bought the fruit for my favorite facial mask. Yes, this is the little girl inside of me, bringing out the pink ribbons and dancing around to "I feel pretty".

There are certain lessons in life that will be with me always and there is other knowledge which I'm still trying to acquire. I'd really like to back to school and study advertising. For so many reasons. It's just one of those skills which you can apply to any aspect of life and enrich it. I'm just mulling it over at the moment, but it would be quite wonderful to have the opportunity to study that. I have to figure out what other things I'm doing next year before I commit to this idea, but it's sneaking higher up on my priority list.

My dream line for the past 3 months has been completed! Yay! For the next 3 months my dream line is mostly me trying to get into the habit of doing stuff I love more often. Like completing 2 pieces of art a month and winning NaNoWriMo, among other things. I'm looking forward to it.

I really like conversation. I do. I like being silly, I like talking seriously about things that I care about, and I like just spending time with people. You know what I don't like? Being lectured about the same thing over and over. Especially when it's like listening to a poorly written paper.
When I want to make a point, I state the point and then corroborate until I feel the person I'm speaking with understands, or they say something that shows they've gotten it. When I want to make a point I don't go off on tangents, because it's important for me to communicate clearly and not distract from the original topic.
I don't expect everyone to take all these things into consideration. However, when I point out that they are repeating themselves and have failed to make any point, they shouldn't be offended. It's honest and it's that simple.

I don't have a pink colored pencil, I wish I did. A black one would be nice too, so I could stop using pen. Obviously they're both the same color, but the textures are so different.

Starting my Christmas card list for this year, if you want to be added send me an email with your mailing address.

See you lovely people soon. :)

Peace, Love & Pancakes
-Liberty

Hello my little pancakes!

I miss making youtube videos. I'm thinking of starting up again. If I do, it'll be slowly and I'll have to set some rules up for myself so I do end up with 300 clips and none of them edited.

For those of you who followed my birthday story book, it was a success! I have also recently been challenged to write and illustrate another story book entirely, by June 2011, for children. I think this may be the perfect chance to finish up my Magic Ball storybook. We shall see what mind manages to cook up!

Today, someone was talking about the use of color in a picture and during one sentence said "..Lavender, Brown.." to which I responded "i never really liked her!" in an overly excited tone. It got me wired looks. If you understand the reference, you're wonderful.

I'm eating every 3 hours, so my usual quick recipes are getting boring! I need to find or make fun new things that are quick and require the things that are already on my grocery list.

I love sunshine.

Peace, Love & Pancakes
-Liberty

Gah! I'm almost finished with this Sudoku book. >.< I need to find one that has more than a hundred or so puzzles in it. Otherwise I go through them too fast.

I love Einstein. He is the syrup to my pancake. I wish he were still around so I could seduce him with my pancakes and unique way of thinking. And I know what you're thinking, but trust me; A man that smart is totally a pancake lover.

List of stuff they've brought me in:
Mangos
Pears
Apples (so many in so many variations that I sorted them and used them in a lesson about numbers, after which I made an apple pie)
Heart shaped chocolate chip cookies
Chocolate
Pineapple (because I mentioned Spongebob)
Bag of cocoa mix
Kiwis
Brownies
Sprinkled vanilla cupcakes
M&Ms
Chocolate covered almonds
Shortbread cookies
Pretzel

All I can say is that they are fantastic listeners, because they caught on to all the foods I said I liked. I think the only reason nobody has brought in pancakes is because they'd be cold by the time they got to me.

Jogging for 2 hours makes me sore. My muscles need a hug.

I love how well the Beatles spoke french. It kind of melts me inside and makes my heart feel like it's flying.

I miss eating dinner with someone. I'm looking forward to being with my friends again for that reason, among many others of course. There's just something about sitting at a table with someone and sharing good food that makes me so happy. Don't get me wrong, I really appreciate spending time with my friends online, but I can't wait to eat at a table with them.

I love candles. They smell lovely and are so wonderfully relaxing.

Tea time. :)

Peace, Love & Pancakes
-Liberty

I need to head to bed so this is going to be relatively quick!

Watched Rocky Horror Picture Show last night and had so much fun singing along to all the songs! What a fun movie, I can't wait for Halloween.

I've decided I'm going for NaNoWriMo this year! What finally pushed me was Alex suggesting that we do it together. Not as in writing a piece of literature together, but writing our own stuff together. That way, it'll much less stressful and we can motivate each other when it gets tough. My favorite part was when he groaned after suggesting it, realizing that it was actually a really good idea and knowing that I'd probably go for it. Meaning he'll actually have to write 50,000 words next month. Is it wrong I almost feel like letting out an evil giggle?
I have a very general idea of what I want to write about. Since last year I went fantasy, science fiction, this year I want to do something more real world. I won't tell you much right now, but I'll be using real life experiences and the experiences of those around me to create the story about a girl gamer. Again nothing crazy like letting her get physically sucked in the game world or anything like that, but I do expect it to be a lot of fun none the less.

Thank you so much for all the people that have already given me their vote for the happy mood blogging job. I really appreciate it! If you want to show a little extra support you can feel free to post the link on your facebook and tell your friends to vote for me too! Every little bit helps and don't forget to keep voting once a day!
I'm working on a flier at the moment and that'll be available for download as part of a facebook event I'm creating later this week! Again, thank you so much guys! It means a lot to me. :)

Link to vote: http://www.sam-e.com/job/entries/188

Peace, Love & Pancakes
-Liberty

Hello there! I need your help!

There's this competition for a blogging job! To get past the first round I need your votes! You can vote everyday and I would appreciate it if you could round up your friends and family to vote for me as well! This would be perfect for me because I'd being getting paid to make people happy!

Here;s the link: http://www.sam-e.com/job/entries/188

Thank you so much in advance!

Peace, Love & Pancakes
-Liberty

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Today I got my first silly band. It's a pink flamingo and I love it. :)

I have a new found love for audio books. I can cook dinner while I listen to a lovely voice reading wonderful words to me.

I mistook a tomato for an apple. Don't even ask me how that happened. It was quite funny.

I love yoga. It makes me feel really good. Mind you, I'm still a novice. The feelings are still wonderful regardless.

Listening to a playlist of Shayne Orok's music covers right before bed, is one of the best things ever.

I'm a playing a game. If you want, you can play with me too! For Halloween, I'm picking 5 different characters. They can each be from history, anime, tv, a book, or a movie. Then when we talk on Halloween we each act as one of the characters that we've chosen. When one of guesses the character that we're acting as, we move on to the next character. When one of us has guessed all 5 characters that person wins!
Example:
Me: Oh hello beautiful lady! You are the most ravishing creature my eyes have ever laid upon! You are the mermaid that lights my sea of loneliness!

Friend: Hi there. I don't have mermaid form yet, is that a cataclysm thing? Should be better than the new hideous tree form they expect me to put up with. Why do you sound like you're crying? I don't need to be watered, if that's what you're thing.

Me: Oh dear one, fret not! You will always be the heart that keeps me beating! I'm guessing you are a resto druid?

Friend: Yes! And I'm guessing you're Tamaki Suo?

Me: Yes! Next Character?

---This would go on until we each guess all 5 of each others characters!---

So if you want to play with me, pick 5 characters and look for my on skype Sunday, October 31st! Don't forget that I'll be available in the morning till around 1pm eastern standard time. After that, it's game over! :)

I miss you guys! Hope to speak to you this Halloween!

Peace, Love & Pancakes
-Liberty

Things currently rummaging around the space waves of my brain:

-With NaNoWriMo less than a month away I have to start thinking about the possibility of participating again. It's not so much a question of whether or not I want to (of course I want to), it's more of a question of can I honestly commit the time to do it. Mind you, I'm fully aware that my schedule around this time of the year has always been a little bit on the ridiculous side, but I don't know if I can handle the extra pressure this year. And to answer what you're probably thinking, No. I can't just start it and then not finish if it gets to be too much. If it gets to be too much I'll lose sleep and get it done anyway. So yes, I'm actually considering not doing it this year. We'll see how I feel closer to the end of the month.

-Child asks me the driveway/parkway question. By the time I got to explaining about word origins and literal definitions, I was interrupted and told that the right answers was lack of intelligence from English people, but that I was still really smart for trying. (laughing to self right now) Kids. Go figure.

-Kids that bring the teacher an apple (or a mango) have a special place inmy heart. So do little girls who wear ridiculously cute bows in their hair.

-I pride myself on the use of color. Professional doesn't have to mean black and white. So, when I decided that I wanted to wear purple on Wednesday to show my support for the young, gay men who committed suicide I thought "Great"! No problem right? However, I find myself in a bit of a jiffy. I own -nothing- purple. Nothing. Not even a purple ribbon for my hair, which I have in every other color, even orange. No purple shirt or sweater, not even socks! I feel a slight pang of disappointment in myself for not owning purple. How is it that I can have cyan blue sneakers, traffic light red corduroys, a sunshine yellow ribbon, and nothing purple? Have I shunned purple subconsciously? I don't have anything against it. I think it's a lovely color. I even recently painted a room in a beautiful shade of tulip purple. I don't know how this happened, but purple I am so sorry. I promise to make a conscious effort to add more of you to my wardrobe and even into my everyday life.

-Tall, skinny, laid back, and super nerdy is rawr. Boys who talk to animals are also quite steamy. Boys who buy adorable, roller skating stuffed animal pigs at the grocery store, because they tag says that they like to cook and love pancakes are also ranked somewhere on the cute meter. I approve of this.

-Comfort > Style. Always and forever. Just because a store dells a particular item of clothing,that doesn't mean you have to buy it. Use your brain. Please.

-When I say make a present tense sentence using a particular object, like say a pencil, that doesn't mean take the pencil and try to make a physical representation of a sentence. Although, I'll admit, it's very clever.

-I'm currently in love with mixing Grey and other colors. It's fantastic. Really.

(Also, Shayne Orok = <3)

Stay awesome. :)

Peace, Love & Pancakes
-Liberty

10 more things you didn't know about me.

1. I signed a petition for a 2nd season of Ouran High School Host club. It's an anime that I very much love. (You can sign it too and I'll give you cookies. http://www.petitiononline.com/1778487/petition.html)

2. My favorite article of clothing was not originally mine. It's a gray T-Shirt and it is completely wonderful.

3. When I was younger strawberries were my 2nd favorite fruit, I was much more partial to kiwis.

4. One of my reasons for never wanting to get married used to be that I didn't want my initials to change.

5. I consciously use song and movie quotes in serious tones during serious conversations, in ways that actually fit. Later I go back and giggle about it to myself.

6. My favorite Pokemon (original 150) are Chamander and Articuno. Don't question my sanity. Rawr.

7. If I ever for some reason become famous and have some sort of photo shoot for whatever, I'm going to request they play Dragonette's album "Fixin To Thrill" throughout the whole thing.

8. My chestnut mare's name is Wendy, the cute, little hippo is named Mr.Hippo, in my mind Mr.Pumpkin is always laughing, and Charizard has a British accent.

9. When I was 5 (maybe 6) I had a crush on Christopher Grippo.

10. Today, I put up my very first ever dream catcher. (Thank you for that <3)

If you actually knew any of those .. you get pancakes. :)

Peace, Love & Pancakes
-Liberty

October 6th, 2010 I woke up at 3am, had a 20 minute car ride, 1 hour long train ride, 8 minute subway ride, 10 minute walk; by which my shoulder was already starting to poke me, an 8 hour bus ride; for which the first 2 hours included me feeling dizzy and sick, a few more minutes of walking, another 10 minute subway ride, and then waiting. On the bus the lady sitting in front of me talked to herself the entire time. It was so rainy and windy outside that my umbrella broke and I ended up buying another one later in the day. My boots got so soaked that they started to drag as I walked and inevitably caused the blisters my feet now have. My coat, while amazing against wind, did nothing but soak in the rain, and my jeans ... well, I think we all know what happens to jeans with a little too much water. We were afraid that this guy rummaging through garbage cans was following us on our way to South Station so we picked up the pace, keeping in mind I already had a blister at that point. I tried Lobster Bisque soup for the first time and didn't really like it, spent most of the day cold, and you want to know what?

It was the best day of my life.

The Gorillaz concert was incredibly awesome, although I admit to not having taken any pictures (Sorry Nathan & Amberly!), because I was too busy enjoying myself the entire time. In truth, I think only about 10 pictures were taken throughout the entire day and they were all while we were sitting at the Library cafe while we were eating. The use of the big screen and the colors was phenomenal, and I loved how they worked the crowd. We went to 2 "fun" stores, one of which also sold "fun" chocolates and I got a banana shaped chocolate pop. *Snicker* The whole day was a lot of fun and it made so happy. I love it and I can't wait to do it again.

However, the real reason it was such a wonderful day was the company. I could have gotten twice as soaked, walked and waited ten times more, and I wouldn't care. Walking through the park, mistaking a canon for a globe, giggling about the numbered public alleys, trying to save the map, finding too many churches, thinking we found the library before actually finding it, getting the most thoughtful give I've ever received, realizing that I'm paler, totally rocking at sudoku, experiencing ninja skills in the corner by the water fountain, being cute in the rain, missing the right street because I was too distracted, trying amp for the first time, rocking out at the concert, leaving my scarf at the arena and doubling back to get it, not holding the railing on the subway back to the station, standing against the wall and being unbelievably happy, missing the train, almost falling asleep on the bench, walking for an hour with a little extra support, somehow taking twice as long of a break, wondering why the person was still standing in the same place, realizing it was a statue, getting in trouble with the rent-a-cop, missing the elevator, hearing the poem in person, and looking back twice before leaving, because I didn't want to go. Rawr.

I'm eternally thankful for how lucky I am. Gah. I didn't want to make this a sentimental post, because I don't feel like that would properly express how amazing of a day it really was, but I don't think I can help it!

Oh, yea. Work was wonderful too. Hah! More on that some other time. :)

Stay wonderful.

Peace, Love & Pancakes
-Liberty

I think it's pretty funny when older women talk about wanting to look like they're 20.

Don't get me wrong, there's nothing wrong with wanting to look good and finding the best possible way to look your best. However, I firmly believe in aging gracefully. I want to look good for my age, not look like a specific age. I rather look healthy, elegant, and natural, than look processed and have face lifts that go all the way back to my ears.

You might think it's easy for me to say since I'm only 23, but I don't think so. It's not even about looking a certain way or not looking a certain way, it's about living up to your own personal standards of beauty and not everyone else's. At the end of the day you're the one that has to be happy with yourself and that includes what you do or don't do to your face.

Peace, Love & Pancakes
-Liberty

I feel like I generally lose a lot of really great things in life. The people I care the most about or my relationships with them, whether literally losing them, or otherwise. Opportunities, chances, possibilities, and plans that I really wanted. Don't get me wrong, I don't regret my life. Everything that's happened or hasn't happened has shaped who I am right now, and while I'm not perfect, I happen to like me.

So, I'm not going to reminisce about what could have been, but I am going to make a promise to not let it happen anymore. Not if I can help it. (and truthfully, more often than not, I can help it, or at least try to) I take full responsibility for my share and my part in all of actions and consequences that I've partaken in up to this point.

I'm at one of those crossroads right now with something very important to me and I refuse to let go of it. I won't let it go away, not work out, or get lost. This is something I know I'll regret if I don't hold on to. It's completely terrifying and that's okay. It's weird, but the fear makes it more real to me, and in an abstract way reminds me that it's worth it. I'm going to take a deep breath, hope for the best, and put myself entirely into this.

(Only 4 days left for the awesomest day ever! :D)

Peace, Love & Pancakes
-Liberty

I'm feeling the pressure to get this birthday present done. Only 6 days left and still 11 pages to get done. Between this and other things I have to get done it's going to be a tight squeeze. I think I may have to pull an all nighter, and to think school hasn't even begun!

I've been scoping out the weather forecast for next week and it so far looks like it's either going to be raining, mostly cloudy, or partly cloudy. -.- I really hope the forecasts find more unity in their reports as the day approaches. Of course, I'm hoping for the best possible weather, not that a little rain is going to take any fun out of my day.

I'm SO excited about the discovery of Gliese581g! I can't wait to see what else they discover about it in the upcoming few months. I'm happy they were so realistic about the possibilities this time around, compared to the jumping to conclusions like they've done so many times in the past. I think the possibility of living on a planet where it's the same weather on a certain part of the planet all year round, is awesome! Think of the possibilities. And I think if they actually prove life on that planet, that would be even more awesome. To me, the ability to foster water on the planet's surface is enough indication that the reality of life on Gliese581g might not be too far off.

I think today is a soup making day. I'm craving carrots in a steamy chicken broth with yummy noodles.

I'm in love with Orange Blossom tea.

"I yelled at it and now it's dead." -<3

Peace, Love & Pancakes
-Liberty

I've been musically obsessing over Gorillaz and Beethoven. Not as odd a combination as you might imagine.

Only 8 days left to the best day ever. I really can't wait to have ridiculous amounts of fun being awesome.

Temporarily paused all work on every one of my side projects to work on a very special, time sensitive present for someone's birthday. Pictures of first 3 pages up on Flikr.

Pictures of apples with messages like "Hi. Just wanted to remind you that you're the apple of my eye." are kind of really cute.

As for when I'll be back on WoW, look for me a few weeks before Cataclysm. I really have no motivation to play at the moment.

Thank you for the reference to the VAA. I'm already taking part in a fandub and an original radioplay. Thankfully readings won't start for a few weeks. Ah, how I love the power of the internet to bring people together.

I love colored pencils. I also love argyle.

You have to give me credit for checking my email almost everyday and actually responding within a few days time. I'm getting better. >.>

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Some of you have expressed interest in learning how to be better food shoppers. You want to know the secret to have a $100 monthly grocery budget and still being able to eat things like roasted red pepper lasagna, Rosemary chicken with Veggies, wheat berry tabbouleh, and rice vermicelli pilaf? I'm going to break it down for you. I promise it's really not difficult. I know that you're smart enough to take these steps and mold them into something that will work for your particular needs.

1. Get a discount card from your supermarket and sign up for the flyers they mail out to people's homes. The flyer is a great resource for sales and promotions, not to mention they usually come with coupons you can use when you check out.

TIP: You can get tons of coupons online at places like wow-coupons.com and couponmom.com. Sometimes, even signing up for a specific brand's mailing list will garner you with coupons too!

2. Make a list. Making a list is probably the most important thing to do before going grocery shopping. If you don't make a list and only go in with a general idea of what you need, you're more likely to buy things you don't actually need, forget the things you really wanted, and spend more money than you needed to.

When you make your list you want to take into account how long you're buying for, the discounted items you saw in the flyer, and what dishes you're hoping to make. Make sure you always stay stocked on your core, staple items, and then you can add all the frills.

TIP: You can add a small #2 to the items on your list to mark what's priority and what can probably wait.

3. At the grocery store you want to either bring a calculator to add things up as you go or grab one of the self scanners that adds everything up for you, if your supermarket has them available to you. This way, you're sure you're not going over your budget and that you're sticking to your list.

TIP: Sales are often advertised as "10 for $!0" or something similar! However, that also means that 1 is $1 and you have no reason to buy more than you actually need! If you don't need that extra bottle of syrup, don't get it.

That's it! Keep in mind that knowing how to cook will be a huge help because most of the time raw ingredients are cheaper than prepackaged box stuff. Taking the steps initially might take you some time, but with regular practice, it becomes second hand nature. Do what feels right and have fun saving money!

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That's all I've got for now. See you lovely people soon. :)

Peace, Love & Pancakes
-Liberty

@Emily - Just read your comment, I'll send you a message on facebook, but I won't be picking up the project I was talking about for about another 2 weeks. (I miss you)

I've been drinking so much hot tea that I might as well refer to myself as British. It's kind of awesome.

I half checked my email this past weekend, responded to all of the responsibility emails, but none of the friends ones, and I have yet to touch facebook. Which means I'm still very much missing my friends. A lot. I'm not going to even try and call everyone out, because that would make this post very long and truthfully I haven't got that much time right now, but you know who you are. All I'm going to say is there's this song that I've had on repeat and it was written by a certain piggly about my dear friend and myself. It's awesome.

I'm doing nightmare before christmas at karaoke this week. It's going to be epic.

I really want a set of colored pencils so that I can obsess over them! Crayons are wonderful, but I don't appreciate how difficult it can be to add detail to smaller drawings with them.

I got a new sudoku book, it's super awesome. At the store that I bought it at, they had these other weird versions of sudoku that made me look it up online and start trying those out too. It's pretty much the best thing since individually packaged slices of cheese.

Some of my current favorite words, phrases, and things of that nature:
Totally Awesome
pretty much
You wanna talk about it?
I don't know what -that's- all about
You think?
The sun is a quagmire, it's not made of fire
Michael Posner was a neurologist long before someone stole his name and started singing
Your face
and I'm sorry but I'm not surpri-i-ised
You have to be careful in space, you might bump into each other while you're sleeping
Get your head in the game!
That's how I roll
*biting sound* nom nom nom, I just eated you

I was reading this article on one of my favorite gadget websites and I was really disappointed at how horrible the grammar was. However, when I got to the end of the article and started reading all of the comments, very astutely pointing out all of the mistakes the writer made, I felt so much better. It's a pretty wonderful feeling when you realize you're not the only grammar nazi that makes an account on a website, just to have the ability to reply to posts and point out the grammar mistakes.

Currently embedded into my brain music wise is the Gorrilaz CD, Plastic Beach. Partly because it's so amazing and mostly because .. well .. you know why. :)

Also in the process of rekindling my love for all of Neil Postman's ingenious works. It still amazes me how Amusing Ourselves to Death is so relevant in current society.

See you soon?

Peace, Love & Pancakes
-Liberty

PS Is anyone relatively comfortable with photoshop? I need some help for a project I'm working on. It's pretty simple, but the program seems so complicated and truthfully I haven't had much time to really play around with it yet. Let me know!

Busy, busy, busy. I can admit to not having checked my email or facebook posts and messages in a while. Hopefully I can do that this weekend. Maybe. I'll have updates and fun stuff coming soon. I'm going to a concert few days before classes start and I'm pretty excited. :3 Question. Would anyone reading this possibly mind recording GLEE for me and sending it to me via the interwebs? Or possibly uploading it somewhere that I can download it from? Pretty please? I'm not sure exactly what date it starts airing, but I'm pretty sure it's soon. I need to spend some time getting the Hulu crack to work, when I actually have some time. Still have not seen anybody on vent since it's been up, or maybe I'm on when nobody else is. >.< I'm going to try changing the info and reposting it, see if that works... at some point this weekend. I hope. Haha! Are you noticing a recurring pattern with how much time I have or might not actually have. It's good times though. I'm happy :)

I've got a bowl of rice and chicken with my name on it, so I'll catch you cool cats later. Miss you. A lot. <3

Peace, Love & Pancakes
-Liberty

The experiment was in fact successful. Pictures as promised up either later today or tomorrow evening. I've been busy. :)

After months of fighting myself I finally budged and bought the book I've been mentally obsessing over. "The God of Loneliness" by: Philip Schultz, a collection of new and selected poems. I sat down in the book store to read the first couple pages and within the first 4 poems I could feel my eyes tear up. The things he writes are beautiful and I absolutely love it. Sometimes, I feel like he's writing for me. Even though some of the things were written eons before the thought of me even existed.

I was totally on a Beatles kick musically, but today I've discovered a song I heard on the radio a while ago and I am now newly falling in love with it. I love that feeling. Of falling in love with something you know will always be there for you, just the way you want it, whenever you need it, every time.

I need a new Sudoku book. I have less than 10 puzzles left in my current one. I need to get on that.

I think I've decided my signature nail polish color is officially red. Yes, indeed.

Chocolate milk is currently one of my favorite things. So are crayons, they're so completely underrated.

And just for the record, I am happy to admit, that I've still got it.

Stay beautiful.

Peace, Love & Pancakes
-Liberty

I've been having a problem with focus.

As in, I have none. Usually, it'll last a couple of hours, maybe a day tops, but last few days have been difficult. I can't seem to finish anything, I decide I want to do something, start doing it, then decide I don't want to anymore. This is completely different than having a million different ideas all jumbled in my head when I'm writing a story. When that happens, I can write down my ideas, maybe even play around with them a little bit, and then return back to the task at hand. Even when I'm reading. A word I don't know will come up, or it'll spark my interest about a topic the book or the characters are talking about, and I'll stop mid page to go look it up, most of the time, leading to me starting to read something totally different. Even that I can deal with, because in the end, I always finish what I started.

That is not how it's been around here.

I can't even finish a sudoku puzzle. I love sudoku puzzles. Seriously. I can (usually) do them for hours, quite happily I might add. I've barely been able to read anything. I get a paragraph in and my mind wanders and I lose interest and patience in something I very much wanted to do, five minutes ago. It's frustrating as can be. Believe you me. This is one of those times where I feel like I should seriously consider the possibility that I have ADD, or something similar.

So, thus I believe that something needs to change.

I have a list of responsibilities that I need to attend to today. However, there is sufficient time after these duties have been fulfilled, to engage in more frivolous activities. What I propose is a two part solution to the situation I find myself in currently.

Part I: Multitasking Overdrive
I suggest to myself, that I put in front of me, the following items:
-1 'Eye of the World' book
-1 Sudoku puzzle book
-1 box of 64 crayons
-1 black pentel pen
-1 black composition notebook
-1 stack of plain white paper
-1 Mensa mental challenge puzzle book
-1 pair of scissors
-1 deck of cards

After the previously mentioned items are in one cozy place, I should proceed to sit down in front of them all. Once an appropriate level of comfort has been achieved and a proper amount of time has been selected, I'd say about an hour, I'll begin with reading the book.

Seems simple right? There's a catch.

I can only spend five minutes doing each thing, before moving on to the next one. That's right. I'm going to give myself exactly what I want. Kind of. The idea here, is to really get into something, want to keep going, but not be able to because the five minutes are up. I want to bore the lack of focus out of my mind.

Once this mindset has been attained, I can move on to...

Part II: A Room in Focus
The plan here, is to finish everything that I started in Part I. Upon completion, I should have the following in front of me:
-3 more chapters read in the 'Eye of the World' book
-3 Difficulty level Sudoku puzzles completed
-1 box of 64 crayons
-1 black pentel pen
-2 pages (at least) filled with words in my black composition notebook
-White paper that is no longer so plain
-3 more pages of the Mensa mental challenge puzzle book finished
-1 pair of scissors
-2 won games of solitaire

At this point, I should be able to accomplish almost anything. I will have finished a bundle of different things, feel good, refocused, and ready to take on the world ahead of me, and more importantly, the projects that I actually want to focus on.

If all goes well, and I think it will, I'll post picture of my puzzles and my creations on here tomorrow. I'll be focused enough to get it done. Right?

Peace, Love & Pancakes
-Liberty

PS.Totally can not believe I actually through writing this entire blog without stopping or pausing to do or look at something else. Go me!

As usual, a list. :)

1.Reading
Totally rereading the wheel of time series at the moment. It's so completely epic. I can't believe the first book is almost as old as I am.

2.Writing
Still have loads of fun working on writing projects. Still up for any side project your mind might be tossing around. Also, my mind has been really up for writing poetry lately which has been delightfully refreshing.

3.Blogging
I've slacked, I know. I'm taking part in a private blog with the two people I'm co writing with, so that's taken up most of my blogging skills lately. Don't hate.

4.Fonts
I had this fantastic idea for a font. Some of you might have seen letters 'L' and 'E' already, I now have also finished letters 'F', 'H', and I'm currently working on 'O', 'Q', and 'G'. The whole font is based on houses. I'll upload the 2 new letters and post them to facebook soon... or I may just wait till I have more of the alphabet. It's been a lot of fun and I love the possibilities I have with this.

5.Punctuation
I am well aware that in American culture a period or a comma goes inside the parenthesis or quotation marks. However, I prefer the European method of placing them on the outside of either of those marks. So, get over it. :P

6.List
I'm almost half way done with my things for 2010 list. :3 And once I'm overseas the rest of the list will be a piece of cake. And now that I've made that remark about my list being a piece of cake, I'm tempted to make that literally true. We'll see if I can do this.

7.Drawing?
No, I haven't started sketching all over the place and drawing full blown versions of the creases in the living room curtains. I have however started making fun patterns and cute little drawings for greeting card type stuff. I don't feel like I'm explaining myself correctly, so I'll eventually post something up here when I remember to upload the pictures. So, some time this year. :)

8.Movies
I realize that recently I've seen a lot of movies. Whether in the theater or other less honest ways. >.> I also realize I have opinions about said movies. (What a surprise!) So, I'm just going to roll into it. (Warning: Some spoilers.)

-Eat, Pray, Love- Not as good as the book obviously. Aside from that, it had beautiful scenery and I felt it depicted the other countries, and the view of the other countries from the main character's perspective really well. The script was lacking, I felt they spent too much time explaining the beginning, didn't come full circle at the end, and did an extremely bad job of showing any actual development of the main character through this soul searching journey. Julia Roberts was, as usual, absolutely amazing and did a fantastic job of bringing the character to life and the leading man who comes in towards the end of the film was phenomenal. I don't know what his name is, but I felt more emotion watching him talk about his family for 2 minutes than in the 2 hours of the rest of the film. Overall, it's an okay film, but not impressive.

-Inception- One of the best movies of all time. Period. Smart, witty, humorous, thought provoking, interesting, and perfect in absolutely everything it tries to accomplish. Like I've said before, the costumes, the music in each of the scenes, the acting, the story, it all correlates, and fits together uniquely to tell a fantastical story. There were absolutely times during the movie that I would forget that I was watching an actor and I would slip into the scene. That's how good it was. Extremely well done, all around. No complaints. None. Love, love, love, love this movie. So much.

-Salt- Angelina did a great job, even if the guy who played her partner did not. He barely had an emotion at all, throughout the entire movie. Not in his voice or his face. It was depressing to watch and a constant reminder that I was watching a movie. The story was relatively predictable and I didn't like the open ended ending. (Seeing a pattern with me and movie endings yet?) The action was great and again Angelina was fantastic at showing all the right emotions at all the right times. Good movie, not great. What can I say? Call me a tough critic?

-The Kids Are All Right- Okay. Let me start by saying that I can understand both perspectives when it comes to this movie. I think this is very much one of those films you'll either be able to look at the way it was intended and really appreciate the it, or not. I personally really liked it. No, I don't advocate for cursing every five minutes, but I felt it was appropriate in this film for the people it was portraying. Which it did perfectly, portray this semi dysfunctional family, and before you even so much as wonder .. no, I'm not talking about the fact that they're two women in a relationship. I'm talking about the relationship in itself. I think was very well done and I'd actually like to see it again to get a deeper look into the movie's message. And no, I don't think the title is misleading. The movie isn't centered around the kids per say, but it's the meaning that really drives it home. Another one of those makes-you-think films. Go ahead, call me a nerd.

-Charlie St. Cloud- I cried so much. It was such a beautiful movie. Zac Efron surprised me with his acting, I didn't know he could be that spot on. He did a really wonderful job at portraying all the emotion, in everything from his voice to his face. The story was great and I definitely felt it did the book justice. It really draws you in and makes you wonder so many things and by the end of the movie all your questions are answered. I loved this one. I would totally see it again and buy it on DVD.

-The Other Guys- This movie was plain out bad. I just don't go for stupid humor. It's not my thing. So, maybe if that's something you're into you might enjoy this one a lot more than I did. And I'm a big Will Ferrel fan, so I was pretty disappointed. I half chuckled at some of the scenes that The Rock was in, and the rest of the movie was just blah.

9.Egypt
Recently stumbled across my Egyptian history posters, articles, and things of that nature. Let the re-obsession begin! If you have or find -anything- Egypt related, you should totally send it my way!

10.Grammar
This is me finally admitting that I'm a Grammar Nazi. There. I said it. It's out in the open now. Judge me with your judgey eyes.

Hope that everyone is doing well. :)
You should totally send me an email, just because.

Peace, Love & Pancakes
-Liberty

Sometimes my memory sucks.

It can get so easy to forget the things I already know. Occasionally, I need to just sit down and remind myself of all the important things in life. Today's post is just that. A reminder. In list form of course! :)

-There is always enough time for everything. Even when you feel like there isn't, there absolutely is. Everything that needs to get done, will get done. If something isn't finished, then it'll be completed at another time. Rushing through something won't help your cause and will probably make you fail at the execution. So take a deep breath and take your time.

-Stress is just stress. Stressing out over something doesn't signify a greater amount of care about something or passion for the situation at hand. Stress just means I can't find a way to cope with things and in the end will end up making me feel worse about stuff. Relax.

-Work before play. This can be tough to stick to. There are so many fun things you want to do and so many temptations right at your fingertips. Facebook, messenger, iTunes, youtube, flicker, photobucket, deviantart, and the list goes on, but get think about it! You get everything under the responsibility tab done finished and then you have as much time as you please to do the thing you want to do! Bake cookies, go for a walk, or dance around the house like a crazed pixie .. or something.

-Stop QQing. You have so many things in your life to be thankful for that really, complaining is just not accepted. You have the ability to read, opposable thumbs, the internet, a bed to sleep in, and I'm sure you can find something to be thankful for every single day of your life. Don't sweat the small stuff when it comes to this. Be appreciative of everything. You never know what you've got till it's gone.

-Pancake are wonderful. It does not matter what other people's opinion on this matter is. Pancakes are a fantastic food with a plethora of possibilities. Haters gunna hate. (Yes, I am aware that "gunna" isn't a real word, but seeing as it's a part of a phrase, I'll let it slide.)

PS: Chipped nails are not cute. I understand they're a trend, which means it'll go away, but they're just an excuse to be lazy. I'm not saying your nails should be a priority, but please.

Peace, Love & Pancakes
-Liberty

You can't fill up a teacup without pouring out the old stuff and cleaning it out.

We are all teacups. If we hold on to and keep all of the old stuff, then we can't fill up with new things. I think it's really important to let things go. When you let the bad things from your past go, you let go of all the things that have somehow affected you negatively, and you open up room for new experiences and the possibility for better memories. You open yourself up to obtain better ways to express your emotions and understanding life. When you clear old thoughts from your mind, your heart clears old feelings.
On this day, take the opportunity to let go of all the things that don't contribute to your well being. What's done is done, don't let the past hold you back, and revel in the freedom of the future. Allow yourself to evolve as a person and take in thoughts, emotions, and conditions that help you to be a better, happier you.

Peace, Love & Pancakes
-Liberty

Stuff and then some other stuff

I'll start this with the other stuff.

I'm going to just list things to make it easier to sift through mentally and so when things come spewing out randomly, I don't feel the need to find correlation or links between that one and the next or the previous. In a list each thing can be completely separate from the rest. That's really the beauty of lists. Especially, if it's meant for your own purposes and not used as an attempt to try and prove a point or support an idea ... then the contents of said list might need to have some connectivity factor. And maybe indeed, even if not always apparent, everything in a list IS indeed connected in one way or another. Which ever way you choose to look at it, this is a list of other stuff.

1.Mail
I love mail. I love hand written letters. I love little doodles and colorful drawings, and pretty much anything made by hand. I love handwriting, and signatures at the end of a card, and seeing my name written across the middle of an envelope. And once I get to Spain and open a PO Box I'll post my mailing address and poke you to mail me postcards and anything else your heart desires, not just because it'll make me happy, but because there's no doubt it'll help with missing all of you fantastic people. The only time I don't like mail is when there's no ....

2.Return Address
Why the heck would you mail something with no return address? What's wrong? If you have the guts to put together a message to me, then have the guts to let me know who you are. Don't be a wuss, because honestly if you're trying to get a point across to me and you can't be open about it, it completely invalidates anything you say. I just won't care. On the other hand, if you've sent me wonderful that totally brightened up my day and I don't even know who you are, I'll have to put a letter to anonymous on this blog, telling you how incredibly awesome you (whoever you might be) are.

3.Franz Ferdinand
Oh my goodness. I've liked his music for years and he's always been there. Waiting, watching, patiently playing on my play lists for the day that I would realize how unbelievably amazing his music truly is. I don't why I didn't see this sooner. It started when Alex linked me one of their songs (off their most recent album,of which I'd only heard bits and pieces of) in the middle of a music exploration conversation and now I'm obsessing over it at the moment. The witty lyrics, the smart mesh of instruments, the way every song is made by the way he sings it, the perfect tone of it all, I love it. It's gloriously wonderful.

4.Co-writing
I love to write. It's something I'm always doing for lots of different reasons. And somehow not until pretty recently I realized it's something I love to share and can enjoy as a team. I'm working on a graphic novel with my friend Nathan and his lovely girlfriend Amber, and it's so far been a blast. So much so, that I want to more of it. This means if you love writing like I do or have a basic story line and set of ideas and want to have some fun getting some meat on the bones of your structure, then I'm your girl! I'll admit it takes more time, just because of the amount of coordination as far as time and the amount of work you plan on taking up separately, but it's totally worth it. How could it not be? Double the imagination and good times.

5.Spain
Apparently, a lot of people freaked out after my last blog. Mostly because they didn't know I was leaving. So to answer some questions about it. No, I haven't left yet, I leave at the end of August after my mother's birthday. Yes, I already know where I'll be working, but not where they'll have me staying at. (As per contract, my stay is their responsibility) As of this very moment, it's not permanent. The contract is only for a year. That doesn't mean they can't hire me come summer or renew my contract for next year and that doesn't mean I can't come back to the states after this contract is over. And before you ask, No, I don't want to disclose my feelings on staying or going, what I'd like to do, or what I have planned. That will reveal itself with time. Don't take it personally, I just don't like putting all my cards on the table. (so to speak)

6.Words
I love words. My current favorite sentence: To and too have two totally different meanings. Think about it. It's awesome. /nod

7.Emily
I love you. I can't tell you how proud I am of what you're doing. I know that it's really difficult for so many reasons, but you're staying true to who you are, and I think in the long run not only will this make you happier, but you'll be setting a fantastic example for Cecilia. No matter what you choose or what happens, you're still Emily and I'll always be here for you. I know that things have just started and the sticky situation has barely started to ooze through things, but stay strong. I'm sending you huge hugs, all the time, everyday. :3

Just as a side note because two minutes ago I finished reading an article about how ignorant people can be ... being gay is not immoral. Get over it. Move on. There are bigger fish to fry.

And another thing..
Crazy Heart was an amazing movie. I love what it says about the choices we make and what kind of people we are. In a very storybook way it reminds us that life isn't a storybook or fairytale and that sometimes you don't know what you've got till it's gone. I very much enjoyed it.

I also recently saw inception which was more amazing than anything I've seen in the past few months. It's officially up in my favorites amongst high school musical and die hard. I'm not even kidding. It was such a fantastic film. Everything from the costumes to the music and the subtle details in each scene that tied everything together, was absolutely perfect. I love the storyline, love the feel, love the characters, just love it, love it, love it all over. Love.

So much love... and stuff.

Peace, Love & Pancakes
-Liberty

So, yea. I'm really excited to leave the states.

I think one of the things that I'll miss is how easily content is available with no restrictions or consequences. Hulu.com is amazing and websites that actually stream ephisodes of their current shows. And today I found out I don't have to miss that all! Yay!

-http://vimeo.com/groups/52421/videos/13009635- Let's me keep watching Hulu from Spain! :D I love that my fellow Spaniards are watching my back like that.

-http://newteevee.com/2008/09/03/blinkbox-wants-to-be-the-european-hulu/- And Blinkbox, which is easily the UK's version Hulu, is soon releasing a version of their website to Spain!

This is awesome. So what am I going to miss since watching Glee will no longer be an issue? Surprisingly enough a lot of things.

-Nerdfighteria- Sadly, there is little to no Nerdfighteria action in Spain. That's not to say there isn't other wonderful nerdy things and groups that celebrate a witty mind, but the community will be completely different and the lack of Hank and John Green will make me a little bit sad.

-Harry Potter fandom- Now, I'll admit I haven't looked too deep into this yet, but Spain doesn't hold Harry potter conventions, wizard rock shows, and surely isn't home to the largest HP group on meetup. All these Harry Potter themed events I shall miss!

-Braille lettering on drive up ATM machines- Oxymorons likes this exist everywhere in this country and they make me giggle at whoever came up with the idea, and even more so at the people who funded it. I might have to dig deeper to find irony in everyday situations once I'm in a country where most things are actually really well thought out.

-New York City- This place has been the object of much turmoil for me. While I greatly believe that a city is defined not just by what it offers, but by it's people, I'm comfortable saying that I really love this city and can NOT stand most of it's people. Maybe it's the mindset which really irks me. All the shoving, rushing, insolence, cussing, and lack of community I will not miss. Central park, Bryant park, the grandeur of it all, the city lights at night, the structure of the buildings, the cheesecake, and the pizza I shall miss.

-Free phone calls all over the US & Canada- While I'm so thankful for programs like Yahoo Messenger and Skype that have and will continue to prove invaluable in keeping in touch with the people I love, I'll miss being able to just call someone. There will be a great time difference and having to hope that people will be online for me to talk with at a time that's convenient to both of us will make me miss my friends quite a lot more.

Now, aside from these things that I'm going to miss I actually have so much more that I've been missing and that I'm looking forward to. Going back to Spain is something that I've fought with myself over for a long time, but I know in my heart that it's the right thing for me. I've met some pretty amazing people here in the US who have impacted me forever and I won't forget about them regardless of where in the world I have to be. The lifestyle change and the different environment is going to be really positive and healthy for me. This is just something that I need to do. It fills me with great sadness to be leaving a lot of great people here, but I know that in the long run this is going to make me very happy.

Peace, Love & Pancakes
-Liberty

Action without thought is like body without soul.
No matter how mundane a task may seem give it everything you've got for it always means more than you may deem.
Every little thing you do causes reactions from others too.
Whether something small and simple every deed does make a ripple.
So think hard about the steps you take based on what in life you wish to make.

<3

Peace, Love & Pancakes
-Liberty

You know when you're little, you imagine all these things for the future.

You think about who you want to be, how you want to grow up, all the kinds of things you want to experience when you're older, you just have so much passion for life. The last thing you think about is love. You don't think about falling in love, relationships and marriage. When little girls start thinking about love they have this picturesque ideal of a guy in their mind. Thinking that they'll end up meeting prince charming, falling madly in love, and have this huge, froufrou wedding. Some of them even go as far as to plan out the exact wedding details, write out a guest list, and talk about their perfect dress.

I was never like that.

When I was a little girl I thought weddings were stupid. My first big crush was Richard Gere, I guess you could say I was into older men. So I spent a lot more time wondering what NAFTA stood for, what Java meant, what Malawi was and why everyone was making such a big deal about it's elections, since I was under the impression that everyone had them. By the time I started to even think about boys as something other than the best pick for the soccer team, all my girl friends already knew what kind of guy they wanted, who they thought was cute, and various number scales to measure how worthy a guy was or wasn't of any of us. I found most of it to be kind of ridiculous and felt like none of it really fit in with the way I thought of boys.

A big part of it for me was feeling like maybe I wasn't ready for it. When I thought about boys I started seeing them as an extension of my girl friends. I thought that maybe I could talk to them the way I did my girl friends and play together like I did with them. I found out really quickly that I couldn't. A girl and boy playing together meant that they were either really close friends that were eventually bound to become boyfriend and girlfriend or that they were already at that latter stage, and while I didn't particularly care what the rest of my friends thought, the boys did. A lot of questions arose in my mind, I wondered what being someone's girlfriend really meant (especially since I had always thought 'novia' was the name given to the girl getting married), what a relationship was, and how I could know what I wanted out of another person when I hadn't even figured myself out yet.

I found a lot of different things during this time, mostly about myself, and molded a lot of my first views on relationships.

The word 'Novia' is the female counterpart of a romantic relationship and used to imply that the couple had marriage as their eventual objective, which explains why it's still used to mean 'Bride.' My mom told me that being someone's girlfriend was a big responsibility and that it meant making a really important promise to another person to only share certain things with them. Some books told me that being someone's girlfriend meant that I was going to marry that person, others said that it meant I was living with that person without being married, and most of them said that it meant I was being 'physical' with that person. Looking up relationships was harder because I found out that there was all kinds of relationships between lots of different things. It led me to the conclusion that as many different relationships exist in math, there's twice as many between people, and I have to be the one that chooses what I want it to be like.

I realized very quickly that while I was comfortable with looking at all these things analytically I was no where near wanting to actually have these things in my life. I found out that even if I could write a list of qualities I like in other people I couldn't guarantee that those qualities would mean that I would like that person 100% of the time and that I liked being surprised by people so a list of this sort seemed kind of pointless. I also found out that it was important to me to know more about myself before I was willing to focus on someone else, I felt kind of selfish about it, but stuck with this belief because it felt right. This is also when I made up my mind about what a romantic relationship was to me and made the decision that I didn't want one until I was ready for marriage.

Then one day I grew up and now my beliefs on love and relationships are more developed.

I wouldn't necessarily say different, but absolutely more defined. It's not so much about a specific list of must haves and cant stands, but a group of values that are important to me. I no longer think that refining myself as an individual is selfish, I think it's smart and it makes sense in my mind. I guess now a days the most important thing to me is that I actually have my own view and that I stick to it. I don't by any means expect other people to agree with it or hold their beliefs on love up to mine. I just wish more people would actually take the time to figure our what they are.

Do you know yours? <3

Peace, Love & Pancakes
-Liberty

Say what's on your mind

You know something ...

I have absolutely no problem with people who want to tell it like it is. I agree that those are the people you can trust the most. I have so much respect for people who are able to be up front and tell someone what's up.

What I have a huge problem with is someone who's rude. Someone who doesn't care about being tactless, crude, unrefined, and disrespectful in order to get their point across. Someone who has absolutely no concern for other people at all.

Let me tell you something you poor excuse for humanity. You think it's okay to tell racist and gay jokes just because it's supposed to be funny? You think it's fine if other people are offended by you in an environment that's suppose to harbor team work and cooperativeness?

It's not.

I am one of those people who really does not care what the rest of the world has to say about what I do or don't do. That does not under any circumstance mean I'm going to do something that I know or am aware is hurtful to people around me in any way. Your opinion? I could care less about it. Whether something I do is going to directly have an impact or consequence on you is completely my business. What I do is my business and nobody else should have to suffer negatively because of something I do.
IE: You wanna get drunk? Peachy. You want to get drunk, go driving, and possibly hurt -another- person in the process? Go to hell.

I don't care if you're trying to be straight up, help someone out, or letting out your frustration about a particular situation. Do it in private or around people you -know- are okay with it. Stop being a jerk. And don't you dare say I'm telling you not to express yourself. Just STOP BEING RUDE.

SO! In conclusion ..
-Being straight forward is awesome.
-Being expressive about how you feel is awesome.
-Being honest is awesome.
-Being yourself is awesome.
-Being RUDE* in the process of any of the above is not at all awesome.

*(Rude: ill-mannered: socially incorrect in behavior, ill-bred, lacking in refinement or grace, uncivil, crude)

That is all.

Peace, Love & Pancakes
-Liberty

This blog comes to you as a spur of the moment window into how I feel right now.

Irrational, hurt, and without any thought into planning or direction I let my fingers tap away at the keyboard as the feelings rush to leave my body and Incubus' Love Hurts plays on repeat, entirely too loud, into my headset. I hate when people think they know me and they don't. I hate being judged a certain way just because someone doesn't understand me. That's right. I feel misunderstood and judged. I usually would give a damn about either of those things, however it hurts a lot when it comes from someone I love and try to help in understanding me. This is one of those times when I don't even know if I love her. I think I may just really want to love her. I have no patience for her anymore, I don't trust her, I don't feel like she knows who I am, or even anything about me. I don't feel respected by her, sometimes I feel used because I feel like she's only nice when she needs me to do something for her, and I can't wait to be far away from her. I feel like a little girl thinking this way. Thinking and waiting patiently for these last 3 months to pass so that I can be gone. Isn't that what teenagers do? They moan and groan about how awful their parents are and how they can't wait to get away? I feel like that's what I'm doing except I'm 23, I don't outwardly bitch about my mother, and I would never purposely try to make her look bad. I don't like to share disagreements I have with her with anyone. Partly because like I said I don't want to make her look bad, partly because everyone thinks she's some kind of heaven sent angel, and partly because I feel like talking about her negatively would be like lowering myself to her level. The funny part about everything, about how I feel towards her, is that she says the same thing to me. That I don't respect or care about her, how she feels, or what she says. That i don't know her at all, that I'm uncaring, insolent, inhumane, and that's just as a person not even getting into me as a daughter. I'm so sick of her. I hate how she makes me feel. I even hate the fact that I'm sick of her. I hate the fact that I feel guilty for hating the fact that I hate the fact that I'm sick of her. I hate that I have so much negative emotion inside of me, and I hate that I can use the word hate, knowing full well what it means, and mean it. I hate that she can make me feel so horrible. I want to say I hate her, I really do. I wish I did. I wish I could just hate her and yell at her openly and even slap her across the face when she insults who I am as a person. Why can't I!? Why am I so stupid that even when she treats me like crap I try to balance it with the good things about her and try to love her?! What the hell is wrong me?! My whole life growing up people told her that no matter how good I was, I'd eventually fall in love and leave her. Go on to live my own life that had no room for her, that I wouldn't want her around and that I'd shut her out completely. I've always told her that wouldn't happen. I promised her that I would take care of her when she got older. I feel like that's what she's pushing for. I feel like she -wants- me to lock her out of my life. I don't want to feel guilty for not loving her like I used to. I no longer feel guilty for wanting things for myself and for my life that don't always include her. I don't feel selfish for wanting my own life. That doesn't mean she won't be a part of it, but my world will not revolve around her. I feel so sad right now. Just a few more months and this will all seem like a distant memory. I hope. I'm going to go drink some apple juice and make a grilled cheese. Thanks for listening to me blog. *hugs computer screen* I really do feel a little better now.

Wall of text crits you for over 9000.

Looking for peace, needing love, and wanting pancakes
-Liberty

Holding a little kid's hand gives me a sense of realism.

It makes me feel tall. Looking down at their pondering face and curious eyes washes a sense of responsibility over me. Like the 5 minutes that I spend holding this little hand in mine means everything. Each question that passes through their head, every reaction they see out of me, all the emotions however huge or overly bland they are that this little person experiences whilst in my care is important. I feel like I need to show them that not all adults are idiots. Partly because I fear for what this child sees and goes through on a daily basis in public school and at home and mostly because that's what I thought about most adults when I was little. I feel this innate desire to show what it means like to be calm and collected. (Notice I left out the 'cool' part that is so often associated with that phrase, because I think that not being cool is perfectly okay and if someone should choose to be otherwise nerdy or weird then more power to them) So what if a glass of milk falls to the floor shattering the glass and spilling milk? Clean it up, giggle about it, and pour another one. Everyone makes mistakes and there are more important things in life to get emotional over than a glass of milk. (Like the lack of Jesse in this week's episode of GLEE /cry)

I feel as if they're affected by everything I do. Not because I'm all that important in general or even to specifically them, but because they somehow absorb everything that goes on around them. As I was enjoying my twin glass of milk with this little person looking over at them across the freshly cleaned table a remarkable group of thoughts splurged in to my head.

And that's when I realized that big people are like that too.

I may be more aware of it with kids, but the truth of the matter is that we're all affected by each other on every capacity. Sometimes we're unconscious of it or choose not to recognize it, but everything that you hear and see and feel are experiences that affect you in one way or another. Maybe the tragic story on the news made you angry, the scores in the paper made you depressed, and the picture pinned up by a magnet on your refrigerator made you realize why neither of the first two really mattered. And that's not even talking about the effect people can have on you. Whether random eye contact on the street makes you smile or the person sort of gives you that 'why-are-you-looking-at-me-anyway' look, the affect is there.

I'm not hoping people will be more aware of those feelings or the reaction to those feelings (although that would be absolutely fantastic and help out the world on a big scale in the long run .. I'll leave that for another blog), but I am taking an active responsibility in the role I play in all this. I'm that person on the street that will smile at you, hold a door open, ask if you need help with a parcel, compliment your hair, and not get snobby if someone else pushes into me by accident or even just to be rude. I promise not to be someone who has a negative effect on anyone's day, to always remember that someone has it worse than me, and to be endlessly thankful for all the things I have in life that make the rest of the junk, not matter.

I can be that calm and collected person all the time and not just when I have a child around me. Adults need to know that not everyone's an idiot too.

Peace, Love & Pancakes
-Liberty

I think we have so much potential.

As humans we have this amazing power to do so many wonderful things. We can create and build. We have so much energy and influence in the world which surrounds us. Our mind is even greater than all of that, with the opportunity and possibility of thinking up almost anything and more importantly the means with which to do it. We have all these resources to cultivate our minds and shape ourselves into something incredible. There are so many people on the planet that we could find someone that excels at almost every single topic that you can think of off the top of your head. We can communicate with people across the world at the touch of a button all from the comfort of our own homes. There is so much brilliance and beauty and good amongst all the hate and war that our planet fosters.

And yet we do nothing.

Or not enough of us do something. We can sit around and talk about issues that the planet is having, we can have intelligent discussions, we can complain about what bothers us, and we can sit around pointing fingers at who's to blame for each specific issue. The problem is that talk is all we do and most of the time we don't talk publicly or to someone that could possibly do something about it. No, we sit at home or in various comfort zones and talk about these things. These massive problems in society or with the world around us never taking into account the possibility that we as people of this wondrous plane might have the power to somehow influence or change the things that we speak of.

I'm not even going to include the people that are too busy worrying about their cars and living up to a particular social standard to even so much as acknowledge that there are problems beyond their short ivory towers. No, I'm talking about the smart people in the world. The people who have the mental capacity to not only inform themselves about different issues, but actually understand them and feel something towards them. Feel something towards problems that don't even directly affect us because we're human and we have an inherent responsibility to each other and to our future generations to leave this planet in the best possible condition.

I'm not saying you have to go out and dedicate your life to curing cancer. Doing something and making a difference is so easy. So simple. It can be anything from smiling all day, leaving a random note for the next person who picks up a book, organizing an awareness movement for united nations day, volunteering your time at a homeless shelter, writing a letter to a senator, random acts of kindness, and the list goes on and on and on. It's the little things that count because life is comprised of little things. Relationships, memories, love, all the little things that string together our lives. Our lives that seem so small, but have such an impact on the future. So, why not? Why not do something?

You're smart, spectacular, loving, and full of potential. Do something with it! Everyone can do something however small it might seem. Get off the sidelines because eventually sitting on the fence is going to hurt your behind. Do something.

Peace, Love & Pancakes
-Liberty

Today I want to be your personal little ray of sunshine.

I want to bottle myself up and fall into your arms warm and inviting. I want to dance with your soul, wispy and beautiful in the light that flows in through your window. I want to be that song that puts a smile on your face and makes your heart skip a beat. I want to be the warmth you feel when you close your eyes and feel me hugging you. The soft breeze in your face making you breathe deep and remember why going outside on occasion can be better than locking yourself behind your favorite gate. I want to take your hand and take you to my favorite cloud looking over all of life's wonderful possibilities, laughing at the thought of what could be and how amazing it all is. I want to make you feel like you're a part of something so much bigger than either of us. I want to bring you to a world that you've never experienced before, where looking out at the sky gives you such a rush that you lose your breathe momentarily and every floating step you take feels like you've just realized how much beauty is everywhere around you and that you're a brand new person with the ability to do absolutely anything and everything. I want to renew your sense in the what if. I want to burst sunlight into every inch of your existence and provide a loving embrace at every turn. I want to be that soft touch tracing the lines of your face and when you open your eyes all you see of me is the light in my eyes shining down on you.

Today I want to make you happy <3

Peace, Love & Pancakes
-Liberty

I wish my life was a musical.

Like The Sound of Music. I can relate to her so much. I feel so quirky and out of place in this world. Not out of place like there is no place for me, but out of place like most people around me don't really know what to make of me. I totally feel like Maria some times. And I love the singing to express everything, especially using the power of music to feel better.

I wish that every time I had a new thought on my mind a song would just sprout from my lips like the words ooze from my fingertips when I type. That music would fill the air and accompany me as if it were fate that a song be sung by me at that very moment. That the world around me would continue on, not like it couldn't hear or chose to ignore, but like this song that was happening around them were meant to be and felt so right that stopping to acknowledge it would be almost like saying it was out of place or anything less than perfect. I wish I could make people smile just by smiling at them and that the end of every night a soft lullaby would lull me to sleep. That every morning a small tune would build up to a loud roar of passionate notes strung together to start my morning gloriously. That music would signal the entrance of an important person into my life or indicate to me when I should be careful turning a corner. That making brownies would have a theme song all its own and that a song played with every changing emotion of those around me. That when someone had something to tell me it would transpose through a beautiful set of lyrics and that everyday occurrences would suddenly be renewed by the songs that surround them. That my overzealous nature and sunny disposition wouldn't be overly anything at all, but instead just the appropriate amount of everything for a song I'm singing.

Oh how I wish my life was a musical. In the mean time while I work on making this happen I will continue to sing for every moment I so see fit and happily enjoy getting lost in the beauty of all the music around me. :)

Peace, Love & Pancakes
-Liberty