The experiment was in fact successful. Pictures as promised up either later today or tomorrow evening. I've been busy. :)

After months of fighting myself I finally budged and bought the book I've been mentally obsessing over. "The God of Loneliness" by: Philip Schultz, a collection of new and selected poems. I sat down in the book store to read the first couple pages and within the first 4 poems I could feel my eyes tear up. The things he writes are beautiful and I absolutely love it. Sometimes, I feel like he's writing for me. Even though some of the things were written eons before the thought of me even existed.

I was totally on a Beatles kick musically, but today I've discovered a song I heard on the radio a while ago and I am now newly falling in love with it. I love that feeling. Of falling in love with something you know will always be there for you, just the way you want it, whenever you need it, every time.

I need a new Sudoku book. I have less than 10 puzzles left in my current one. I need to get on that.

I think I've decided my signature nail polish color is officially red. Yes, indeed.

Chocolate milk is currently one of my favorite things. So are crayons, they're so completely underrated.

And just for the record, I am happy to admit, that I've still got it.

Stay beautiful.

Peace, Love & Pancakes
-Liberty

I've been having a problem with focus.

As in, I have none. Usually, it'll last a couple of hours, maybe a day tops, but last few days have been difficult. I can't seem to finish anything, I decide I want to do something, start doing it, then decide I don't want to anymore. This is completely different than having a million different ideas all jumbled in my head when I'm writing a story. When that happens, I can write down my ideas, maybe even play around with them a little bit, and then return back to the task at hand. Even when I'm reading. A word I don't know will come up, or it'll spark my interest about a topic the book or the characters are talking about, and I'll stop mid page to go look it up, most of the time, leading to me starting to read something totally different. Even that I can deal with, because in the end, I always finish what I started.

That is not how it's been around here.

I can't even finish a sudoku puzzle. I love sudoku puzzles. Seriously. I can (usually) do them for hours, quite happily I might add. I've barely been able to read anything. I get a paragraph in and my mind wanders and I lose interest and patience in something I very much wanted to do, five minutes ago. It's frustrating as can be. Believe you me. This is one of those times where I feel like I should seriously consider the possibility that I have ADD, or something similar.

So, thus I believe that something needs to change.

I have a list of responsibilities that I need to attend to today. However, there is sufficient time after these duties have been fulfilled, to engage in more frivolous activities. What I propose is a two part solution to the situation I find myself in currently.

Part I: Multitasking Overdrive
I suggest to myself, that I put in front of me, the following items:
-1 'Eye of the World' book
-1 Sudoku puzzle book
-1 box of 64 crayons
-1 black pentel pen
-1 black composition notebook
-1 stack of plain white paper
-1 Mensa mental challenge puzzle book
-1 pair of scissors
-1 deck of cards

After the previously mentioned items are in one cozy place, I should proceed to sit down in front of them all. Once an appropriate level of comfort has been achieved and a proper amount of time has been selected, I'd say about an hour, I'll begin with reading the book.

Seems simple right? There's a catch.

I can only spend five minutes doing each thing, before moving on to the next one. That's right. I'm going to give myself exactly what I want. Kind of. The idea here, is to really get into something, want to keep going, but not be able to because the five minutes are up. I want to bore the lack of focus out of my mind.

Once this mindset has been attained, I can move on to...

Part II: A Room in Focus
The plan here, is to finish everything that I started in Part I. Upon completion, I should have the following in front of me:
-3 more chapters read in the 'Eye of the World' book
-3 Difficulty level Sudoku puzzles completed
-1 box of 64 crayons
-1 black pentel pen
-2 pages (at least) filled with words in my black composition notebook
-White paper that is no longer so plain
-3 more pages of the Mensa mental challenge puzzle book finished
-1 pair of scissors
-2 won games of solitaire

At this point, I should be able to accomplish almost anything. I will have finished a bundle of different things, feel good, refocused, and ready to take on the world ahead of me, and more importantly, the projects that I actually want to focus on.

If all goes well, and I think it will, I'll post picture of my puzzles and my creations on here tomorrow. I'll be focused enough to get it done. Right?

Peace, Love & Pancakes
-Liberty

PS.Totally can not believe I actually through writing this entire blog without stopping or pausing to do or look at something else. Go me!

As usual, a list. :)

1.Reading
Totally rereading the wheel of time series at the moment. It's so completely epic. I can't believe the first book is almost as old as I am.

2.Writing
Still have loads of fun working on writing projects. Still up for any side project your mind might be tossing around. Also, my mind has been really up for writing poetry lately which has been delightfully refreshing.

3.Blogging
I've slacked, I know. I'm taking part in a private blog with the two people I'm co writing with, so that's taken up most of my blogging skills lately. Don't hate.

4.Fonts
I had this fantastic idea for a font. Some of you might have seen letters 'L' and 'E' already, I now have also finished letters 'F', 'H', and I'm currently working on 'O', 'Q', and 'G'. The whole font is based on houses. I'll upload the 2 new letters and post them to facebook soon... or I may just wait till I have more of the alphabet. It's been a lot of fun and I love the possibilities I have with this.

5.Punctuation
I am well aware that in American culture a period or a comma goes inside the parenthesis or quotation marks. However, I prefer the European method of placing them on the outside of either of those marks. So, get over it. :P

6.List
I'm almost half way done with my things for 2010 list. :3 And once I'm overseas the rest of the list will be a piece of cake. And now that I've made that remark about my list being a piece of cake, I'm tempted to make that literally true. We'll see if I can do this.

7.Drawing?
No, I haven't started sketching all over the place and drawing full blown versions of the creases in the living room curtains. I have however started making fun patterns and cute little drawings for greeting card type stuff. I don't feel like I'm explaining myself correctly, so I'll eventually post something up here when I remember to upload the pictures. So, some time this year. :)

8.Movies
I realize that recently I've seen a lot of movies. Whether in the theater or other less honest ways. >.> I also realize I have opinions about said movies. (What a surprise!) So, I'm just going to roll into it. (Warning: Some spoilers.)

-Eat, Pray, Love- Not as good as the book obviously. Aside from that, it had beautiful scenery and I felt it depicted the other countries, and the view of the other countries from the main character's perspective really well. The script was lacking, I felt they spent too much time explaining the beginning, didn't come full circle at the end, and did an extremely bad job of showing any actual development of the main character through this soul searching journey. Julia Roberts was, as usual, absolutely amazing and did a fantastic job of bringing the character to life and the leading man who comes in towards the end of the film was phenomenal. I don't know what his name is, but I felt more emotion watching him talk about his family for 2 minutes than in the 2 hours of the rest of the film. Overall, it's an okay film, but not impressive.

-Inception- One of the best movies of all time. Period. Smart, witty, humorous, thought provoking, interesting, and perfect in absolutely everything it tries to accomplish. Like I've said before, the costumes, the music in each of the scenes, the acting, the story, it all correlates, and fits together uniquely to tell a fantastical story. There were absolutely times during the movie that I would forget that I was watching an actor and I would slip into the scene. That's how good it was. Extremely well done, all around. No complaints. None. Love, love, love, love this movie. So much.

-Salt- Angelina did a great job, even if the guy who played her partner did not. He barely had an emotion at all, throughout the entire movie. Not in his voice or his face. It was depressing to watch and a constant reminder that I was watching a movie. The story was relatively predictable and I didn't like the open ended ending. (Seeing a pattern with me and movie endings yet?) The action was great and again Angelina was fantastic at showing all the right emotions at all the right times. Good movie, not great. What can I say? Call me a tough critic?

-The Kids Are All Right- Okay. Let me start by saying that I can understand both perspectives when it comes to this movie. I think this is very much one of those films you'll either be able to look at the way it was intended and really appreciate the it, or not. I personally really liked it. No, I don't advocate for cursing every five minutes, but I felt it was appropriate in this film for the people it was portraying. Which it did perfectly, portray this semi dysfunctional family, and before you even so much as wonder .. no, I'm not talking about the fact that they're two women in a relationship. I'm talking about the relationship in itself. I think was very well done and I'd actually like to see it again to get a deeper look into the movie's message. And no, I don't think the title is misleading. The movie isn't centered around the kids per say, but it's the meaning that really drives it home. Another one of those makes-you-think films. Go ahead, call me a nerd.

-Charlie St. Cloud- I cried so much. It was such a beautiful movie. Zac Efron surprised me with his acting, I didn't know he could be that spot on. He did a really wonderful job at portraying all the emotion, in everything from his voice to his face. The story was great and I definitely felt it did the book justice. It really draws you in and makes you wonder so many things and by the end of the movie all your questions are answered. I loved this one. I would totally see it again and buy it on DVD.

-The Other Guys- This movie was plain out bad. I just don't go for stupid humor. It's not my thing. So, maybe if that's something you're into you might enjoy this one a lot more than I did. And I'm a big Will Ferrel fan, so I was pretty disappointed. I half chuckled at some of the scenes that The Rock was in, and the rest of the movie was just blah.

9.Egypt
Recently stumbled across my Egyptian history posters, articles, and things of that nature. Let the re-obsession begin! If you have or find -anything- Egypt related, you should totally send it my way!

10.Grammar
This is me finally admitting that I'm a Grammar Nazi. There. I said it. It's out in the open now. Judge me with your judgey eyes.

Hope that everyone is doing well. :)
You should totally send me an email, just because.

Peace, Love & Pancakes
-Liberty

Sometimes my memory sucks.

It can get so easy to forget the things I already know. Occasionally, I need to just sit down and remind myself of all the important things in life. Today's post is just that. A reminder. In list form of course! :)

-There is always enough time for everything. Even when you feel like there isn't, there absolutely is. Everything that needs to get done, will get done. If something isn't finished, then it'll be completed at another time. Rushing through something won't help your cause and will probably make you fail at the execution. So take a deep breath and take your time.

-Stress is just stress. Stressing out over something doesn't signify a greater amount of care about something or passion for the situation at hand. Stress just means I can't find a way to cope with things and in the end will end up making me feel worse about stuff. Relax.

-Work before play. This can be tough to stick to. There are so many fun things you want to do and so many temptations right at your fingertips. Facebook, messenger, iTunes, youtube, flicker, photobucket, deviantart, and the list goes on, but get think about it! You get everything under the responsibility tab done finished and then you have as much time as you please to do the thing you want to do! Bake cookies, go for a walk, or dance around the house like a crazed pixie .. or something.

-Stop QQing. You have so many things in your life to be thankful for that really, complaining is just not accepted. You have the ability to read, opposable thumbs, the internet, a bed to sleep in, and I'm sure you can find something to be thankful for every single day of your life. Don't sweat the small stuff when it comes to this. Be appreciative of everything. You never know what you've got till it's gone.

-Pancake are wonderful. It does not matter what other people's opinion on this matter is. Pancakes are a fantastic food with a plethora of possibilities. Haters gunna hate. (Yes, I am aware that "gunna" isn't a real word, but seeing as it's a part of a phrase, I'll let it slide.)

PS: Chipped nails are not cute. I understand they're a trend, which means it'll go away, but they're just an excuse to be lazy. I'm not saying your nails should be a priority, but please.

Peace, Love & Pancakes
-Liberty

You can't fill up a teacup without pouring out the old stuff and cleaning it out.

We are all teacups. If we hold on to and keep all of the old stuff, then we can't fill up with new things. I think it's really important to let things go. When you let the bad things from your past go, you let go of all the things that have somehow affected you negatively, and you open up room for new experiences and the possibility for better memories. You open yourself up to obtain better ways to express your emotions and understanding life. When you clear old thoughts from your mind, your heart clears old feelings.
On this day, take the opportunity to let go of all the things that don't contribute to your well being. What's done is done, don't let the past hold you back, and revel in the freedom of the future. Allow yourself to evolve as a person and take in thoughts, emotions, and conditions that help you to be a better, happier you.

Peace, Love & Pancakes
-Liberty