I'm going to try and explain how I feel today.

A lot of this probably going to sound either really weird or considerably silly so I apologize in advance for anyone who might happen to be reading this and not really know what's going on. But I am not, for the record, being silly or anything of the sort. So, with that I will embark on the journey of trying to express in words how it is that I feel today, in large part for my own benefit so that maybe I can understand it better once it's written down. (or typed)

I realized that I'm alive.

I mean I know that I'm living, I know that I'm alive, but I am alive. It doesn't matter for how long or for how short in perspective to the history of the world. I am here right now and I have the capability of doing amazing things. Aside from the amazing things I already know I'm going to do like work for the UN and help American society raise children with more respect, confidence, self awareness, and knowledge. There is absolutely nothing stopping me from doing anything except for myself. Who cares if my life is short. It's my life, let me worry about it. I will do with it as I please.

Reality is perception.

By that I mean that reality is what the vast majority of people believe, for instance if the world wants to believe that the world is flat .. then guess what. The world is flat. I don't always agree with the reality of human beings. And I am indeed a human being. A curious, complex creature with hopes and a determination to reach to every single star I have set out on my journey to reach. The most important part about it all to me is keeping in perspective that everything affects me. When I drive by a person walking and I look at them they affect me. Whether I realize it or not or want them to or not. I think we all affect each other directly or indirectly and that's why it's so significant to me to be able to help people. Because we all play a roll in everyone else's lives. I feel like I'm starting to ramble but I'm going to go with it.

As I sit here I have this immense feeling of life streaming through me. Everything looks new and beautiful. More so than other days for me. When I bite my lip I realize that's my lip. When I look in the mirror I realize that it's myself I'm looking at. Not that I wasn't aware of those facts before but now, it's as if I'm actually taking the time to recognize them. This is so difficult for me to explain. Everything that I do feels like I'm doing it for the first time, even though I know that I'm not, it's still invigorating and makes me smile. Grr. I can't imagine what this sounds like to you.

I guess the reason I even wanted to try and share this with anyone is because I really hope that people can realize that we need to be more self responsible of what we do and how we act. We have a tremendous effect on each other and the capability of having that effect on the world. Why don't we as people band together to use it in a more positive fashion. Why don't we quit wasting time being negative and hating on eachother, and focusing on the stupid things we might not like, and instead focus on how to make those things better and how we can take small steps in everyday life to achieve greater things.

These thoughts have sparked an idea.

I want to make a difference in my community. I'm going to write a letter to everyone on my street. I'm going to talk about togetherness and how we should act more neighborly towards each other. It's not about religion, money, social status, it's just about forming positive relationships with the people in your community. I hope that the people who read the letters don't think like most people do "Oh no, I don't want to meet other people. Bah." This could be a really great thing if everyone gets together. I'll have to think this out more thoroughly of course. And I'll post later on when I have a finished copy of the letter that I'm going to send out. And most importantly I'll document the whole thing.

So, am I crazy?

Probably. But that's okay. Just another day living as the Pancake Queen. Boo ya.

Peace, Love & Pancakes
-Lib