All you need is love .. and maybe a little music

Today was very thankfully uneventful.

The muscles in my arms are still really sore. All I had to do at the gym today was treadmill and some elliptical machines and that wasn't too bad. My legs aren't really that sore and I'm hoping that they aren't tomorrow morning either! Haha!

I've been thinking about something that Stefan said my first day with Camille, that I have all the support that I need right there at the gym. I like that thought, that there's people there willing to be supportive and give me that extra eumph that I need, but in all reality that's not the only support I need or (very thankfully) have.

Thinking about it today I realized that I actually need a lot more than I've been willing to admit in the past. Need in general that is, not just support. I've always been very independent and self reliant, and I don't think that's going to change. I do however need attention. The right kinds from the right people. (I'm so complicated aren't I? Any sort of attention just won't do it for me .. geesh! Who do I think I am?!) When I like someone I want more attention from that person which explains why I enjoy being around my friends as much as I do and why a couple days away from the people I care about most feels like forever.
I realized that while I love being around a lot of people I love all at once, there are definitely times where I enjoy being one on one with someone more. For those of you read my blog about friendship, 3 really is my comfort zone. I can thrive at 1 and 2 just fine, but that point where I get to hang out with someone on my own and really get to know them is my favorite. I like getting to know people. I like scratching the surface enough to form some jokes and get somewhat comfortable, and with the people that I'm close to I like reinforcing the bond that's there and either surprise each other with things we didn't realize we didn't know or being surprised at how much we do. Obviously these are things I already knew that I liked, but I've never really acknowledged them or realized just how important to me they are. And I absolutely never realized just how much attention I really like to have. Being around good people is so important to me. If it wasn't for the internet and the telephone I don't know what I would do. I realized that I get frustrated when I can't attain the kind of attention I want for whatever reason, to the point of sometimes getting moody. Maybe being an only child has affected me more than I thought it had. I'm not materialistic, I'd like to think I'm not greedy, but by golly do I need to feel loved. That's what it really comes down to I think. Love. I need to feel like there's people around me that appreciate me and love me for who I am .. and there is, and I'm so ridiculously grateful for that. That and music. Because music keeps me sane and without it I don't think I could overcome a lot of things that I do.

So this one goes out for all the people I love, the love they give to me, and music.

Peace, Love & Pancakes
-Liberty