It's days like this I miss my dog the most.

I overslept which makes today my day off from working out which means tomorrow is going to kinda of suck between church, working out, and all the other things that Sundays usually mean. I was feeling a little under weather last night and while today I'm feeling better my head hasn't stopped playing it's drummer boy theme all day. I was half asleep going to the funeral this morning and went right back to sleep when I got home, to the point where it all felt very disorienting and for the first few hours after waking up again I thought that the whole thing had been a bad dream.

I spent most of the day over-thinking my relationships with certain people, which probably did my headache no good, leveling my first ever alliance paladin, and drinking too much water. Usually on days where I spend a lot of time at home I'd have Babe here to cuddle with and talk to, his bark and constant crave of my attention made me feel less alone. Oddly, I don't really want to talk anyone today. I just feel like keeping this time to myself and thinking and writing and doing whatever else tickles my fancy. Seeing Emily's comments on facebook makes me smile and feel closer to here even though we haven't spoken today. Being in the total quiet is rather peaceful and relaxing, with nothing but my breathing to break the sound. I can close my eyes and feel as if I'm far away from all of this. It's not like everything is all bad either, don't get me wrong. It's just nice sometimes to have a little away time.

I feel so uncertain about some things .. I wish I could just have answers. Worst of all I feel kind of dumb for not being to just ask the things I want to ask and tell people what it is I want. It's not a feeling I'm used to. I wouldn't really say that I'm the shy type. If I want something I'll usually find a diplomatic way of asking for it and getting it. But I guess that's a story for another time.

For now .. au revoir mon amies <3

peace, love & pancakes
-Liberty