The holidays feel so far away.

The warm fleece blankets snuggling against me on the couch making my feet feel cozy and my arms more aware of the cold air. The soft hum of the radio sitting on the book shelf playing drawn out christmas songs. The sound of boots trudging up the stairs and jackets being squished into the coat closet. The silver kettle announcing that hot chocolate was about to be had and the way the mug warmed my fingers and the steam would add color to my cheeks as I patiently waited for it to cool down enough to be able to feel the smooth chocolate touch my lips. The smile that would surprisingly dance across my face as I went through different christmas cards and more importantly the messages inside them. Wrapped in my favorite green blanket and listening to Taylor Swift I feel like I'm in a different place and time.

My mind feels peaceful and I have this overwhelming desire to smile all the time, more than usual. Maybe it's because I've been going through the details and possibilities of things for this year and they excite me. I can't wait to do so much. Maybe it's because I have an unopened pack of Reese's sitting on my desk, but I really do think it's the whole possibilities thing and such. Haha!

Today I'm thinking a lot about the movie up in the air. More specifically about the message of the movie and the metaphor that the main character used to describe life, a backpack. It's so true. Most people hold on to so much stuff that they can't move and even more so people. So many relationships in a person's life. But I honestly don't think that any of those things should hold a person down unwillingly. I think if you want to go do something and you can without affecting someone close to you financially, physically, or otherwise negatively then go for it. Notice I didn't say mentally. Mostly because it's impossible to not affect someone mentally. Whether we want to or not everything we do affects the people around us in one way or another. People have to realize that their life is their own. Nobody else will have to live with the consequences of your actions but you. (Unless of course you choose to have children at which point your life will, hopefully happily, no longer be just yours) I do however think sometimes people need to just let go of everything, all the baggage, and stop being victims to circumstance.

I guess the reason that it's on my mind so much is because of a woman I know. A friend of my mom's. Let's call her Nae. Nae lives in Argentina, is supsosedly happily married to a rich man who apparently adores her, has 2 kids from her first marriage that no longer live with her or anywhere near her, and yet has asked my mom if she can come stay with her and help her find work. Doesn't make much sense does it? The truth is she's not happy, they don't love each other, and her kids hang out with her ex-husband because he's the one with the money. She however is unable to find it in her to be honest with my mom and instead makes up poor excuses for everything. I feel like she's just dragging things out without reason. Why can't she just pack her things up and leave? So she's unhappy. Then Nae should ask for help if she needs it and get her life back together. I know that my mom would help her if she could just be honest. I feel like Nae is being purposely ignorant. She knows her situation and yet does nothing to change it. It's not something that I can understand or even truly respect. And I'm usually the one who can accept everything, at least respect it to it's necessary degrees if not comprehend it. I guess this is just one of those things I won't ever really get. Meh.

Anyway.

I'm almost finished with the second installment to the Adventures of Insano and Awesome Girl! And after I'm finished editing it I already know what my next project is going to be. I've had a recurring nightmare where I die and I wake up as a newborn baby, still remembering everything from this life. I've thought about it and over and over and that's what my next novel is going to be about. Not about me, but about a girl who that actually happens to and her journey growing up. There's obviously a lot of details to work out, but I'm already excited regardless!

And just for the record .. in regards to my last blog about thanks. You don't really think that I only have 7 people to thank do you? Nubcake! But seeing as I have to write a blog everyday, I wanted to split it up. I'll be thanking 7 people at a time and hopefully by the end of the year I'll have thanked everyone in my life :)

Peace, Love & Pancakes
-Liberty