Thank you & I'm sorry

Part one: Thank you

I love you. I think that you are a wonderful person to have in my life and I want to say thank you. Today's blog goes out to say thank you to so many people.

Mom - You are amazing. If it wasn't for you I wouldn't be who I am and I wouldn't of had so many of the experiences that molded my mind into the fascinating cornucopia of awesome that it is today. Thank you for having me and loving me and buying me books when I was little, even if they were maybe too old for me, for teaching me to cook, for not laughing when I'd stand on the dining table and sing, for never missing a play, for putting up with every single new thing I create and that you have to listen to, for giving me cute ears, for passing on your spunk, and for being not just my mom but my mother. For that and for so many other things I say thank you. I love you most of all.

Betty - Even though you're not around anymore I still need to thank you. And I mean, since you're sitting up there on a cloud partying it up angel style I know you'll have time to read this. (Dedicate a Beatles' song to me won't ya?!) You are beautiful in every meaning of the word. I can't believe that I got to be your best friend! I feel so lucky. You are my missing dimple, my left hand snap, the 'owl' to my 'gr', my personal safety wheel, my life sized mini mouse, and so many other things that I'll never be able to thank you enough for. You're the reason I'm not afraid to admit that I like being nerdy and that I know dancing in public is perfectly acceptable. You've given me more support than you could possibly know. I will always love you no matter how long you've been gone.

Patrick - You are the music in me. From the first moment I met you I knew that you were Fabulous and that this could be the start of something new. You always help me to Getcha head in the game and even when I want to Scream you tell me that we can Work this out. You're always breaking free and never stick to the status quo. You are what I've been looking for in a friend for so long. Right here, right now, you can bet on it .. that I will never have another friend like you. With you it's now or never and always a night to remember. I am so gracious to get to bop to the top and discuss ancient fish like the Humu Humu Nuku Nuku Apua with you Everyday. All for one mon ami, we're all in this together. You're the best friend a girl could have! :)

Nathan - I don't think you'll ever know how much I count on you. You're that release that I need, that secret weapon I keep in my closet when I feel like the rest of the world is too crazy for me to handle. You're a wonderful friend and I appreciate how you're there for me so much. Nobody can break me down quite like you. You give me relief and joy and hope and remind me that I'm not completely insane .. all the time. I admire your toughness and realism and how even within all that you still save room for a little sparkle and sugar coating when you see it fit. You're gosh darn awesome. Thank you for being my friend.

Julie - I look up to you in so many ways. You're positively brilliant, sensationally pleasant, and down right awesome. I love talking to you, I could do it all day. I don't care what you say about yourself, to me you are a remarkable person. You never cease to surprise to me and I'm always astounded at how comfortable I find myself when I'm around you. You give me hope for human kind and the knowledge that there are still kind-hearted, good people in the world. I am immensely grateful to you for having allowed me the extreme pleasure of being your friend, having your company, and I look forward to more of it all.

Emily - You are my favorite ninja. You are my sunshine when I can't find it in me to smile, you brighten my day even when I see no hope. I love you so much. You're such an amazing person to know and I feel eternally grateful to be able to call you my friend. I feel alive and bouncy and completely full of joy when I'm around you. You don't know how much your friendship means to me and how big of an impact you've had on me already. I can't wait to see what the future holds for you and me.

Brian - Oh my dear Brian. How your witty remarks and delectable company have affected me so. I smile just at the sound of hearing you say hello! Your honesty is enjoyably refreshing and I always look forward to hearing your unique take on life. You are my personal gossip girl and I know I can always confide in you. There are not enough synonyms for amazing in the dictionary or thesaurus to describe what I think of you. Thank you so much for being you, for introducing me to Helen and for being such a fantabulous Jacob Black ...err I mean friend. Totally.

To all my friends - You are the most important people in my life. Without you my experiences would not be the same and I would not who I am. I can never thank you enough for how amazing you are and how much you've affected my life.

Part Two: I'm sorry.

I am by no stretch of the imagination perfect. I've done things that I'm less than proud of. I know that I've hurt people, disappointed people, and made people cry. And for all of that and everything else I want to say that I'm sorry. I am so sorry for ever having caused you grief, trouble, sleeplessness, anguish, tears, and anything awful that I might have made you feel. Please forgive me. I know that this may be asking for a lot, but please try. I'm asking you for amnesty and understanding. I'm asking that you look inside you and find the parts that I've in some way affected negatively, and then throw them out. This is my sincere apology to you. I am eternally penitent for everything. And I do promise to not repeat the things for which I am remorseful for. I'm sorry. I really am.

Whoever you are, even those people who will never read what I've written, I truly wish you a most wonderful 2010. May you find it in your heart to live your life happily and to the best of your ability, may you feel love and peace, and may you achieve everything that you want this year. I'm sending you huge air hugs <3

Happy New Year

Peace, Love & Pancakes
-Liberty